~§hö©kWävê~
Sunday, July 06, 2008
Friday, July 04, 2008
Jobless..
Yes, I'm currently jobless. But I'm not doing anything about it except for rotting at home. Don't ask me to look for a job, as you can never move me. I'm as stubborn as a bull. Being so comfortable with what I'm having now, my life's frozen in this circle that I've created myself. Nothing will move unless I myself take the first step out of this comfort zone of mine. Sigh.
~§hö©kWävê~
~§hö©kWävê~
Monday, June 30, 2008
Port Dickson..
As I mentioned previously, I went to Port Dickson with my ex-colleagues. I went to look for them in the office as they were departing straight after work and I needed to follow their car. They had already arranged the seatings previously and I was in the same car as Yi Kang and Yee Mun. Apparently, Mei Leng was going as well and we went to KLIA to fetch her as she just came back from Taiwan. There were a total of 5 fully loaded cars all together.
It was quite boring along the way as the journey was long. There weren't any jokers as well and everyone was just staring out of the window or sleeping. Being the quiet me, I just took some pictures along the way and did some small talk with my ex-colleague who was driving. We started to talk more when Mei Leng came in the car as we were interested with her trip to Taiwan. Seems like she enjoyed herself alot and she brought back quite a number of things as well. I wonder when will I be able to travel overseas again. Been more than 10 years since I've last left Malaysia.
They booked 2 units in an resort called Ancasa Resort Allsuits (Apartments). It is located at the popular beachfront along the eight and a half mile of Pantai Teluk Kemang, Port Dickson. We separated the 2 units accordingly, 1 for those with families, 1 for the rest of us. It was quite a big place as there were 3 bedrooms, 3 bathrooms, a kitchen and a living room. As soon as everyone reached, we took everything up and started to prepare for dinner since they bought lots of stuff for steamboat and BBQ.
Me and few of my colleagues went down to the beach for a walk while some of them stayed in the apartment gambling or preparing dinner. It wasn't that nice as the beach was full of stones. There weren't any Chinese there as everyone around us were very dark skinned. Anyway, the view there was nice as the sun began to set. I took quite a number of pictures but they're all unavailable now. Will post it up as soon as I get my hands on it. Went to play in the sea and cam-whored with them as well. ^^
Dinner was very filling as I had to finish up most of the food there. Later during the night, we went out to another beach further down the road. Seven of us cramped into a single car as the others were gambling and didn't want to go out. The beach was wonderful! The sand was so soft and clean compared to the ones beside the apartment we were staying in. I just laid there and looked upon the cloudy skies. Been awhile since I've had the chance to just lay on the sand, looking up to the skies and listening to the sound of waves.
On the way back, we were stopped by a road block as the car was over loaded with people. My friend who was driving went down and after awhile, we were able to leave. He told us the police officer just gave us a warning and let us go. Wonder what they discussed about around the corner as he told us no "duit kopi" was given. Hmm. Well, who cares, as long as we get to go home. Hehe. After that, few of us chatted till the next morning. I went to sleep around 6 as I was kinda tired, and woke up 4 hours later.
Went home after lunch and dropped dead as I was very sleepy. The trip was kinda fun as it was the 1st time I went out with so many of them. Hopefully there is more to come. Oh and the best thing about this trip was that I didn't have to pay a single cent! Kekeke. Adios for now, will be posting the pictures as soon as I have them. ^^
~§hö©kWävê~
It was quite boring along the way as the journey was long. There weren't any jokers as well and everyone was just staring out of the window or sleeping. Being the quiet me, I just took some pictures along the way and did some small talk with my ex-colleague who was driving. We started to talk more when Mei Leng came in the car as we were interested with her trip to Taiwan. Seems like she enjoyed herself alot and she brought back quite a number of things as well. I wonder when will I be able to travel overseas again. Been more than 10 years since I've last left Malaysia.
They booked 2 units in an resort called Ancasa Resort Allsuits (Apartments). It is located at the popular beachfront along the eight and a half mile of Pantai Teluk Kemang, Port Dickson. We separated the 2 units accordingly, 1 for those with families, 1 for the rest of us. It was quite a big place as there were 3 bedrooms, 3 bathrooms, a kitchen and a living room. As soon as everyone reached, we took everything up and started to prepare for dinner since they bought lots of stuff for steamboat and BBQ.
Me and few of my colleagues went down to the beach for a walk while some of them stayed in the apartment gambling or preparing dinner. It wasn't that nice as the beach was full of stones. There weren't any Chinese there as everyone around us were very dark skinned. Anyway, the view there was nice as the sun began to set. I took quite a number of pictures but they're all unavailable now. Will post it up as soon as I get my hands on it. Went to play in the sea and cam-whored with them as well. ^^
Dinner was very filling as I had to finish up most of the food there. Later during the night, we went out to another beach further down the road. Seven of us cramped into a single car as the others were gambling and didn't want to go out. The beach was wonderful! The sand was so soft and clean compared to the ones beside the apartment we were staying in. I just laid there and looked upon the cloudy skies. Been awhile since I've had the chance to just lay on the sand, looking up to the skies and listening to the sound of waves.
On the way back, we were stopped by a road block as the car was over loaded with people. My friend who was driving went down and after awhile, we were able to leave. He told us the police officer just gave us a warning and let us go. Wonder what they discussed about around the corner as he told us no "duit kopi" was given. Hmm. Well, who cares, as long as we get to go home. Hehe. After that, few of us chatted till the next morning. I went to sleep around 6 as I was kinda tired, and woke up 4 hours later.
Went home after lunch and dropped dead as I was very sleepy. The trip was kinda fun as it was the 1st time I went out with so many of them. Hopefully there is more to come. Oh and the best thing about this trip was that I didn't have to pay a single cent! Kekeke. Adios for now, will be posting the pictures as soon as I have them. ^^
~§hö©kWävê~
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Updates Part 3..
Been hanging around the house doing nothing but playing games ever since I've finished my training. I'm not exactly sure how long has it been but I guess I've been useless for around 2 months now.
Been back to Penang few weeks back, catching up with my parents and hunting for my favorite dishes. Life in Penang is definitely so much more relaxing than in KL, and whenever I'm feeling moody like I am now, I can always go to the seaside and listen to the sound of waves. In KL, I have nowhere to go whenever I'm feeling moody, except for blogging.
Things went wrong as soon as me and Robb came back to KL. He dropped his LG Viewty in the bus, and I dropped my wallet in the taxi. Seems to me that I've lost quite a number of precious things during my stay in KL. My friends, my handphone, my MP3 player, my laptop, my 21st birthday present from my mum, and now my wallet. Sigh.
But not everything is bad for me, as I have been living happily with Robb for around 2 years now, and to top it up I have a lovely son to love. Although he has grown a habit of biting things, especially me, he is still a good boy and very lovable. Can't make myself to hit him whenever he did something wrong and Robb has to be the bad guy.
Things aren't all that good at home though. My new housemates are cool, it's just that since there are so many people at home now, the internet is getting slower and slower each day. Especially when they are all downloading stuffs 24/7. Now I can't do my things smoothly online without having to restart the modem or going to a cyber cafe. It sucks =.=!
A trip to the seaside would really do me good at such a time. Hopefully my trip to Port Dickson tomorrow with my ex-colleagues would be enjoyable. I haven't even packed my things. No idea what to bring as I don't know what are their plans. Can't wait to lie down on the beach at night, just listening to the sound of waves and enjoying the sea breeze. I always feel better when I'm around somewhere with lots of water. Do all Pisceans feel the same?
~§hö©kWävê~
Been back to Penang few weeks back, catching up with my parents and hunting for my favorite dishes. Life in Penang is definitely so much more relaxing than in KL, and whenever I'm feeling moody like I am now, I can always go to the seaside and listen to the sound of waves. In KL, I have nowhere to go whenever I'm feeling moody, except for blogging.
Things went wrong as soon as me and Robb came back to KL. He dropped his LG Viewty in the bus, and I dropped my wallet in the taxi. Seems to me that I've lost quite a number of precious things during my stay in KL. My friends, my handphone, my MP3 player, my laptop, my 21st birthday present from my mum, and now my wallet. Sigh.
But not everything is bad for me, as I have been living happily with Robb for around 2 years now, and to top it up I have a lovely son to love. Although he has grown a habit of biting things, especially me, he is still a good boy and very lovable. Can't make myself to hit him whenever he did something wrong and Robb has to be the bad guy.
Things aren't all that good at home though. My new housemates are cool, it's just that since there are so many people at home now, the internet is getting slower and slower each day. Especially when they are all downloading stuffs 24/7. Now I can't do my things smoothly online without having to restart the modem or going to a cyber cafe. It sucks =.=!
A trip to the seaside would really do me good at such a time. Hopefully my trip to Port Dickson tomorrow with my ex-colleagues would be enjoyable. I haven't even packed my things. No idea what to bring as I don't know what are their plans. Can't wait to lie down on the beach at night, just listening to the sound of waves and enjoying the sea breeze. I always feel better when I'm around somewhere with lots of water. Do all Pisceans feel the same?
~§hö©kWävê~
Monday, March 31, 2008
Updates Part 2..
Just gonna post up some pictures taken from MATTA Fair. Work has been somewhat boring for the past few weeks. Besides getting to know some funny names of customers like Chun Doi, nothing much interesting happens at work.
My results were out and as expected, I failed Japanese II. Had to take a day off to pass up the resit form, and another day off to take the resit bill. As usual, SSH is fucking slow. Everyone else always get their results, bills and etc before us.
I had my paper remarked as well, having hope that I can pass as I don't have much time to read. I tried to ask my lecturer whether I am able to take 2 weeks off to study before exam but she said no. Oh well, bad luck then.
Can't wait for my industrial training to finish. But then, I still have no idea what to do after that. Sigh. Always indecisive. Zzz.
~§hö©kWävê~
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Updates Part 1..
18th February 2008 was the first day of working in my entire 23 years of life. I was quite excited and nervous at first as it was something new for me. I woke up 3 hours earlier so I wouldn't be late for work. The traffic was terrible. It took me nearly 2 hours to reach my work place. Even so, I reached my work place 10 minutes earlier and waited outside with two of my classmates who were working at the same place. The office was still empty as it was still early.
They only arrived around 9.15am. Talk about punctuality. Well, we followed them in and informed them that we were they new interns and they asked us to wait at our respective departments. Oh yea, we were assigned to different departments before this. Mei Leng is in the Ticketing Department while me and Yi Kang are in the USA and Canada Tour Department. Lucky for Mei Leng, her manager was already there and so she was briefed and had something to do. On the other hand, me and Yi Kang had to wait for another 10 to 20 minutes before someone from our department came. He asked us to just sit down and relax as the manager was not here yet. After handling some of his work, he took us around the office and introduced us to the rest of our colleagues from the other departments.
After the brief introductions, we went back to our seats and just sat there. Kenny, the guy from our department, didn't know what the manager wanted to brief us about so he just asked us to wait until he arrived. I HAD NEVER BEEN THAT BORED BEFORE!! The feeling of boredom and drowsiness is not something I would want to feel on the first day of work. Zzz. We eventually sat there from 9.00 in the morning until around 3.00 in the evening!! He eventually showed up in the evening and just thought us how to answer the phone and pass the calls. -.-"
Well, nothing much can be done as they were all quiet busy preparing for the MAS Travel Fair. There were not much of a difference for the entire week but I managed to learn a little on their airline booking system and also how to apply for an USA Visa. Thursday was better as I had to help setup the booth for MAS Travel Fair in KLCC. It was just right around the corner, thus making things easier to move. Even so, it was quite tiring as we had to carry all those things without a car.
There was not much people during the entire 3 day's travel fair. It might be due to the fact that our booth was located at the last hall's exit so most people were just passing by to the exit. I went to the 1st two halls and noticed that there were more people there. Even so, the amount of visitors were less than what I had expected. I guess most people were waiting for the upcoming MATTA Fair as there will be more airlines to choose from. My job was mainly just to distribute fliers to visitors around our booth. I was able to explain some of the packages available but will still direct them to my seniors as they can give them a more detailed explanation.
There was one man who came by and complained on the entrance fees. He was rambling by himself and walked away leaving me dumbstruck. Talk about randomness. LoL. Nothing much interesting happened after that. During the last day of the travel fair, a guy came and performed magic. All of us were charmed by his magic. We finished quite early as there were no customers. After clearing everything up, our big boss treated us dinner in a steamboat restaurant somewhere in Imbi. It was delicious! I ended up with a very full stomach as they keep asking me to finish up the food. I think I gained few extra pounds during that night. Hehe. Anyway, I shall try to update more next time. Till then, bye~
~§hö©kWävê~
They only arrived around 9.15am. Talk about punctuality. Well, we followed them in and informed them that we were they new interns and they asked us to wait at our respective departments. Oh yea, we were assigned to different departments before this. Mei Leng is in the Ticketing Department while me and Yi Kang are in the USA and Canada Tour Department. Lucky for Mei Leng, her manager was already there and so she was briefed and had something to do. On the other hand, me and Yi Kang had to wait for another 10 to 20 minutes before someone from our department came. He asked us to just sit down and relax as the manager was not here yet. After handling some of his work, he took us around the office and introduced us to the rest of our colleagues from the other departments.
After the brief introductions, we went back to our seats and just sat there. Kenny, the guy from our department, didn't know what the manager wanted to brief us about so he just asked us to wait until he arrived. I HAD NEVER BEEN THAT BORED BEFORE!! The feeling of boredom and drowsiness is not something I would want to feel on the first day of work. Zzz. We eventually sat there from 9.00 in the morning until around 3.00 in the evening!! He eventually showed up in the evening and just thought us how to answer the phone and pass the calls. -.-"
Well, nothing much can be done as they were all quiet busy preparing for the MAS Travel Fair. There were not much of a difference for the entire week but I managed to learn a little on their airline booking system and also how to apply for an USA Visa. Thursday was better as I had to help setup the booth for MAS Travel Fair in KLCC. It was just right around the corner, thus making things easier to move. Even so, it was quite tiring as we had to carry all those things without a car.
There was not much people during the entire 3 day's travel fair. It might be due to the fact that our booth was located at the last hall's exit so most people were just passing by to the exit. I went to the 1st two halls and noticed that there were more people there. Even so, the amount of visitors were less than what I had expected. I guess most people were waiting for the upcoming MATTA Fair as there will be more airlines to choose from. My job was mainly just to distribute fliers to visitors around our booth. I was able to explain some of the packages available but will still direct them to my seniors as they can give them a more detailed explanation.
There was one man who came by and complained on the entrance fees. He was rambling by himself and walked away leaving me dumbstruck. Talk about randomness. LoL. Nothing much interesting happened after that. During the last day of the travel fair, a guy came and performed magic. All of us were charmed by his magic. We finished quite early as there were no customers. After clearing everything up, our big boss treated us dinner in a steamboat restaurant somewhere in Imbi. It was delicious! I ended up with a very full stomach as they keep asking me to finish up the food. I think I gained few extra pounds during that night. Hehe. Anyway, I shall try to update more next time. Till then, bye~
~§hö©kWävê~
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Semester Break..
Two more papers and then I'm out of this sad place, at least for a few weeks. I have been very emotionally unstable for the past week after those unfortunate events. Thankfully, I have Robb to see me through and giving me the strength to hold on.
As usual, I'm up this late doing last minute revision for the paper tomorrow. All these late nights are making my body weaker than it already is. Been feeling uneasy and adding in the moodiness, it kinda gave Robb a hard time cheering me up. Sorry dear.
Chinese New Year is coming and the weather is as hot as ever. Been thinking of going swimming when I'm back in Penang. It has been awhile since I've done any healthy activities and I wonder if I'll ever start doing any regular exercises again. Maybe this Chinese New Year will give me a fresh start to do everything that I had intended to do. Hopefully it is a better new year for me than the "English New Year".
I have a lot to do tomorrow. Going for my paper at 9.00AM, look for my lecturer after the paper, follow Yi Kang to Raja Chulan, go look for clothes, and going for a gathering with my Perfect World guildmates in PJ for dinner. I wonder if I could stay awake for the entire duration. Maybe I should get some rest. =\
がんばって ください!
~§hö©kWävê~
Thursday, January 24, 2008
You Used To..
You used to tease me a lot..
You used to say goodnight..
You used to call me Fei Zai..
You used to crack my bones..
You used to eat dinner with us..
You used to go out for movies with us..
You used to ask me about things you don't understand..
You used to make us Nescafes in the middle of the night..
You used to drag me to gym no matter how many times I refused..
There are a lot of things that you used to do.. But not anymore.. Things have changed.. Even before that incident..
~§hö©kWävê~
You used to say goodnight..
You used to call me Fei Zai..
You used to crack my bones..
You used to eat dinner with us..
You used to go out for movies with us..
You used to ask me about things you don't understand..
You used to make us Nescafes in the middle of the night..
You used to drag me to gym no matter how many times I refused..
There are a lot of things that you used to do.. But not anymore.. Things have changed.. Even before that incident..
~§hö©kWävê~
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Sigh..
Nothing good comes out whenever I start blogging. All you see are sad and depressing stuff. I am currently having exams and thus am awake for the whole night doing last minute studying. With so much time on my own, I start to think of what lies ahead of me, as well as everything that has happened.
For a start, I realized that I never really belonged to any group of friends. Whenever I see people with a group of their own I tend to feel envious. Even though I'm glad I have Robb with me, I still feel lonely sometimes. Due to the recent happenings, I felt even worse. You could say that I lost a friend whom I am really fond of for quite some time. Things are just not the same as it used to be.
After my exams I will be heading back to Penang for a short holiday as well as for Chinese New Year. I guess I would be staying home a lot then. Before you know it, I will be back in KL, doing my industrial training. I have never worked before, not even a part-time job. My fear of stepping into the working life is starting to shroud around me again. I never really knew why I felt this way.
How will my life be? What is it like to be working as a trainee in a travel agency? What am I supposed to do there? Will I be able to handle the jobs given to me? So many questions and yet all the answers are unavailable to me. I know those are silly questions but they keep popping up from my brain. Will my friendship with Justin ever recover to what it used to be? Will I know more people who will eventually be close friends with me? Will history repeat itself? Sigh..
I've become more and more anti-social I guess. I used to have lots of people to mix with. Now I'm just becoming one of those people with no life, playing online games and chatting with people through my new Personal Computer. When will I ever be able to speak up to so many people in reality? I can crap a lot when I'm chatting through MSN but when it comes to real life, I'm entirely different. Why is that so? I have no idea. Maybe having been depressed few years back made me into a person with several layers of walls to protect myself.
It might feel nice to be hiding behind a protective layer, but curiosity always makes you want to tear down those walls and see what happens. Sometimes it does work, tearing down those walls, but after awhile things start to happen and the walls start to build itself up again. I guess I'll be trapped inside this wall forever, hiding like a small kid who is afraid of the world.
Guess I'll go back to my studies now. Hospitality Law paper in 4 hours time. Pray I don't flunk like my Japanese paper.
~§hö©kWävê~
For a start, I realized that I never really belonged to any group of friends. Whenever I see people with a group of their own I tend to feel envious. Even though I'm glad I have Robb with me, I still feel lonely sometimes. Due to the recent happenings, I felt even worse. You could say that I lost a friend whom I am really fond of for quite some time. Things are just not the same as it used to be.
After my exams I will be heading back to Penang for a short holiday as well as for Chinese New Year. I guess I would be staying home a lot then. Before you know it, I will be back in KL, doing my industrial training. I have never worked before, not even a part-time job. My fear of stepping into the working life is starting to shroud around me again. I never really knew why I felt this way.
How will my life be? What is it like to be working as a trainee in a travel agency? What am I supposed to do there? Will I be able to handle the jobs given to me? So many questions and yet all the answers are unavailable to me. I know those are silly questions but they keep popping up from my brain. Will my friendship with Justin ever recover to what it used to be? Will I know more people who will eventually be close friends with me? Will history repeat itself? Sigh..
I've become more and more anti-social I guess. I used to have lots of people to mix with. Now I'm just becoming one of those people with no life, playing online games and chatting with people through my new Personal Computer. When will I ever be able to speak up to so many people in reality? I can crap a lot when I'm chatting through MSN but when it comes to real life, I'm entirely different. Why is that so? I have no idea. Maybe having been depressed few years back made me into a person with several layers of walls to protect myself.
It might feel nice to be hiding behind a protective layer, but curiosity always makes you want to tear down those walls and see what happens. Sometimes it does work, tearing down those walls, but after awhile things start to happen and the walls start to build itself up again. I guess I'll be trapped inside this wall forever, hiding like a small kid who is afraid of the world.
Guess I'll go back to my studies now. Hospitality Law paper in 4 hours time. Pray I don't flunk like my Japanese paper.
~§hö©kWävê~
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Changes..
It didn't start out quite right for me this year. Having my laptop stolen is something that will affect me for a very long time. Those who really know me would know that I treasure my laptop as if it was my second heart. All the pictures that I took and kept for so many years were kept in my hard disk. Not forgetting those animes which I spent so much time downloading were all inside my hard disk as well. Every single file that I kept inside my laptop is a part of me, and now, it's all gone.
The shock of losing so much in one single night, is unbearable. The worst part is that the door was not even broken! Somehow, he/she/they had the keys to easily walk into my sanctuary and take my most important possession. I was out of words when I woke up to find my table empty. I went all blank and cried.
No doubt I have my suspicions of who is responsible for this thievery. It all started few weeks back when Justin gave a girl his keys. The girl had been staying over for consecutive nights and was walking in and out of the house as if she were staying here for good. After Robb lost his keys INSIDE the house, logically she would be the first one to be suspected. I told Justin about it he defended his "friend" by saying that Robb might just had misplaced his keys. FINE. But I still told him not to let the girl stay over for so long as it is not her house. Justin PROMISED me that she will not come over to stay again and after that things just went on fine.
But on that night before my laptop was stolen, SHE appeared again. I was quite irritated as Justin broke his word, but I just let things be. The next morning, my laptop along with RM200+ cash was gone and the door was not even broken. Who do you think I would suspect? I don't believe in coincidences. If Robb's key were misplaced somewhere in the house, the only possibility is that Justin's friend duplicated his keys when he passed it to her! And there is also the possibility that the girl took Robb's keys when she came the other night! She can just pass the keys to one of her friends and come over to sleep to prevent herself from getting blamed.
I told Justin about this and he says I'm moody and emotional at that time and don't wanna talk about it. He still defends his "friend" and believes that I'm in the wrong to blame her. When I told him not to ever bring her over again or I would chase her out, he felt that I'm blaming him for my loss. Robb told me maybe Justin feels bad as me and the girl are both his friends and he doesn't know what to do. Well, he didn't seem like he feels anything at all except for when I talk bad about his "friend". He didn't even care about how I felt. If he did, well, he's not showing it.
Now I'm beginning to doubt if he even thinks of me as a buddy. Sigh. If that is so, there is no point of me having to ever talk to him again unless it is necessary. Exams are just around the corner and I'm still hanging around playing Perfect World to avoid thinking about those events that will make me moody. How am I to study? I am thankful though that I have Robb around with me. If things were to turn this bad and he's not in my life, I guess I would have broken down and drown in a sea of sorrow.
Another problem would be having to find a new housemate. Christy will be moving out at the end of January but she only informed me today. How the hell is she going to find another person to replace her on February? It would be hard for us to even help her get a replacement as most people will be going back to their hometown for Chinese New Year. Sigh. Even if we managed to find one, he/she/they might not even be compatible to us. It's just the beginning of the year and yet so many problems to handle.
Angry and sad..
~§hö©kWävê~
The shock of losing so much in one single night, is unbearable. The worst part is that the door was not even broken! Somehow, he/she/they had the keys to easily walk into my sanctuary and take my most important possession. I was out of words when I woke up to find my table empty. I went all blank and cried.
No doubt I have my suspicions of who is responsible for this thievery. It all started few weeks back when Justin gave a girl his keys. The girl had been staying over for consecutive nights and was walking in and out of the house as if she were staying here for good. After Robb lost his keys INSIDE the house, logically she would be the first one to be suspected. I told Justin about it he defended his "friend" by saying that Robb might just had misplaced his keys. FINE. But I still told him not to let the girl stay over for so long as it is not her house. Justin PROMISED me that she will not come over to stay again and after that things just went on fine.
But on that night before my laptop was stolen, SHE appeared again. I was quite irritated as Justin broke his word, but I just let things be. The next morning, my laptop along with RM200+ cash was gone and the door was not even broken. Who do you think I would suspect? I don't believe in coincidences. If Robb's key were misplaced somewhere in the house, the only possibility is that Justin's friend duplicated his keys when he passed it to her! And there is also the possibility that the girl took Robb's keys when she came the other night! She can just pass the keys to one of her friends and come over to sleep to prevent herself from getting blamed.
I told Justin about this and he says I'm moody and emotional at that time and don't wanna talk about it. He still defends his "friend" and believes that I'm in the wrong to blame her. When I told him not to ever bring her over again or I would chase her out, he felt that I'm blaming him for my loss. Robb told me maybe Justin feels bad as me and the girl are both his friends and he doesn't know what to do. Well, he didn't seem like he feels anything at all except for when I talk bad about his "friend". He didn't even care about how I felt. If he did, well, he's not showing it.
Now I'm beginning to doubt if he even thinks of me as a buddy. Sigh. If that is so, there is no point of me having to ever talk to him again unless it is necessary. Exams are just around the corner and I'm still hanging around playing Perfect World to avoid thinking about those events that will make me moody. How am I to study? I am thankful though that I have Robb around with me. If things were to turn this bad and he's not in my life, I guess I would have broken down and drown in a sea of sorrow.
Another problem would be having to find a new housemate. Christy will be moving out at the end of January but she only informed me today. How the hell is she going to find another person to replace her on February? It would be hard for us to even help her get a replacement as most people will be going back to their hometown for Chinese New Year. Sigh. Even if we managed to find one, he/she/they might not even be compatible to us. It's just the beginning of the year and yet so many problems to handle.
Angry and sad..
~§hö©kWävê~
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