Idle Life..

My blog has been dead for quite some time now. That just shows how dull my life is with nothing much going on. Most of the days it is just waking up, going to work, going home and sleep. Whenever I'm free, everyone else is busy, especially when my off day is on a Thursday. When everyone else is free on weekends, I have to go to work. Sigh.

It does not help that I have responsibilities at home, mainly Zuzu. I'm not complaining about having Zuzu around as I love him a lot but his welfare has to be taken into consideration in whatever plans that I might have. Someone has to be around to feed him, to make sure that he has enough water to drink, to play with him and so on. It's not easy being a father, especially when I'm working while wondering how bored he is by being alone at home.

Having a dog does not mean that we should only play with it when we're bored and neglect it when we're not. We have to remember that while we might have our family, friends and career, our dog only has us. A dog needs companionship from us much more than we need him. 10 Promises To My Dog is a movie that I would advice someone to watch if he or she is thinking of getting a dog. It is impossible to find a link to download it, so I went to Timesquare and bought the DVD.

Recently, I found a primary school friend of mine through Facebook and started chatting with him. I wasn't that close to him before but I had a nice chat with him. People really do change a lot, especially in appearance. I noticed that most of my friends that I had known a long time ago, looked different from how they were. Most of them had turned quite attractive. As for me, I still look the same as I was before.

Oh well, guess I'll disappear for god knows how long again before I have something else to write here. Have to sleep now as I'm working morning shift tomorrow and Robb is waiting for me with Zuzu in the room. Goodnight.

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Short Updates..

19/05 - Mother called to inform that my uncle had passed away. Took three days unpaid leave and went back to Penang right after work.

20/05 - Went to uncle's funeral and got to know that I was their godson. "Sent him away" together with their only daughter.

22/05 - Came back to KL. Unpacked, had a short rest, packed again, and headed to Genting Highlands for Robb's belated birthday. Stayed for a night.

24/05 - Back to work as usual. Brother came to KL to study.

03/06 - Watched Terminator with Jason and Marcus in Pavilion after work. Felt that Pavilion has degraded to Timesquare's status.

04/06 - Off day. Moody as I didn't get to spend much time with Robb because he's very busy with work. Slept early.

05/06 - Still moody. Didn't message me the whole day. Sent him a "I miss you.." message but only received a "Very busy.." reply. He'll be home late again today so had dinner with brother. Going to sleep early again.

Moody..
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I Miss You So..

It has been years since I've last met you. You don't know how much I've been dreaming of meeting you ever since the last time we were together in Penang. I remembered the first time when I met you in the shopping complex, it was love at first sight. You might not be as presentable as everyone else nor as famous as they are, but to me, you're the most handsome one of all. Every single part of you spelled "yummy" in my head. I couldn't resist myself from drooling every time I see you.

Then one day I brought you home with me. I couldn't stop myself from stripping you bare naked and tasting you inside me. It was heaven! Never have I been so satisfied and it was pleasuring in every single way. After that day I just needed more and more of you. You were like a drug to me, and I was a very serious drug addict and I just can't live a day without you.

Having you with me just spices up my life. Nothing has ever made me feel so. But after awhile, you seemed to disappear and I could not find you anywhere. You left me without even saying goodbye. I was devastated. I was lost. How could you just leave without a trace? I went all over to look for you but you just seemed to vanish into thin air. It was a very hard time for me as I was so into you. There is nothing that could replace you no matter how hard I tried.

After being apart for so many years, I started to live happily. Time made me forget about you. You become nothing but a fragment of my life as I knew I would never see you again. But life is just full of surprises. As I was on the way home after work today, I stopped by at Jusco Wangsa Maju to get some snacks for my beloved Zuzu. Guess what? I saw you again. At first I didn't believe that it was you that I saw. I went closer and I recognized you even when you've changed your outlook a little. You were still the same, as irresistible as ever.

I wanted to turn around and walk away, but the demon inside me stopped me from doing so. I have longed to see you after so many years, and finally you appeared before me. Even though I have moved on, part of me still lusts for you, wanting you inside me, feeling the same satisfying sensation as I felt few years back. My inner desires overcame my logic to just walk away and I ended up confronting you.

In the end, I brought you home, just like how I did back in Penang. No one else knows about this yet, and they would definitely disapprove of me doing so as it would just add salt to my wound. But I don't care, it was a chance of a lifetime for me and if I let you go again, I wouldn't know whether you would disappear again like before. I had to have you. I want you. I needed you. Please do not leave me again. Please stay.






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Money Money Money..

It has been quite some time since I've updated my blog and this was actually written in a notebook when I was working this morning. It has been quite a tough month for me as I was low on cash. Even though I had my first salary at the end of April, it was just enough to cover my fixed expenses and left me with little to spare. Not to mention Robb's birthday is coming soon. Sigh.

I can't blame anyone but myself for being idle for so long, surviving on nothing but my own savings. I was quite dry when I started to work as I had depleted most of my savings. Even so, I needed to spend on some necessary things before I started work. This job of mine requires me to wear a white shirt everyday. Sadly, I only had one white shirt, and it was quite old. It wasn't even bought by myself as some guy gave it to me after I helped him out few years back. I tried to look for a cheap one but ended up buying two from Seed as the ones in Jusco were either too bad in quality or too big for me. I managed to get a black slacks and a belt in Jusco which was quite cheap though.

The food around my work place ain't cheap either. One meal alone would cost nearly RM 10.00 and for someone who has a big appetite like me it is always not filling. I had to bring my own bread most of the time as I was really low on cash that time. Around two weeks after I started working, the sole of my shoes came off when I was on night shift. Had to spend again to get it mended.

When I was about to get my pay, there was a one day warehouse sales by L'oreal and Justin was working part-time there. They were selling Armani Diamonds for Men at only RM 150.00 for a 75ml bottle and the deodorant at only RM 30.00. As I kinda like the smell and it was very cheap considering the normal price for a 75ml bottle is at RM 240.00, I asked Justin to buy it for me. There goes a part of my salary.

Right after I get my paycheck, I sort of did a budget for the month of May. After deducting my rental, water and electric bill, phone bill, internet as well as estimated transportation costs, I was left with around RM 300.00 to survive the month. To make things worse, my upper left wisdom tooth went rebellious and gave me a hard time during work. I had no choice but to go see a dentist to have it exracted and sent to obedience camp. Due to this, I missed out on a day of triple pay at work as the dentist was fully booked for the week.

A sudden thought came to my mind on how I might be able to make my financial situation a little better. I remembered that TAR College students can claim back the RM 100.00 caution money that we paid when we enrolled into the college. So I went to the college yesterday to enquire about it as it was my off day. From my previous experiences with the School of Social Science and Humanities(SSH) office, I knew that their management was very bad as our school was always the last to receive our results, bills, timetables or anything that has to go through them. But what I found out yesterday was even worst! They told me that it would take one year for them to process the caution money. WTF? If they told me that they needed like two months or something then it is acceptable but one year? Why the fuck would they need that long? Zzz.

On another note from work, there was this couple who came by the counter few days back, asking us to waive her parking ticket as she is a resident here. The problem is, all residents here have their own car transponder for them to enter the parking lots without having to take the parking ticket, which she had forgotten to bring. Once the ticket is issued, they are bound to pay it and we have no say in this as it is under the developers jurisdiction and not us from the management. Her ticket was just RM 3.00 anyway but still she keeps on repeating that she's a resident and shouldn't be paying for it. Come on, you're staying in a service residence that costs around RM 1,200.00 per square foot and you make a fuss over a parking ticket that costs less than RM 10.00? How cheap can you be?

I really don't understand these people. Are all rich people so stingy? I wouldn't know. I'm neither rich nor do I have any rich friends. Don't think I would get rich next time either. Guess I'll never know.

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Hands..

"I think the hands represent the ability to do something, to act and change things for the better, even if the hands are small (even if your ability is limited). But more people together can change a lot. This is what i think the hands signify."

That quote was taken from YouTube where I found this video. I find it quite true that every little bit of help that we offer will change something, one way or another. Even so, most people have the mindset to keep to themselves and hardly ever lend a helping hand unless he or she has something to gain in return. Sometimes, I find it sad to be living in such a realistic world.

What's the point of teaching those morals and virtues to small children when grownups themselves do not practice it? It will only give them a sense of false security that the world is a nice and loving place to live in, such as in fairy tales. If it was taught realistically then they would be more prepared to grow up and face the world without much shock.

All around the world, there would be people in need of help such as the orphanages, old folks homes, and etc. There are still honest and kind people around who would do their share of helping around once awhile, but the amount is going down as time passes by. I would think it is because that people are less trusting now after being cheated by so many other fake organizations who manipulate their generosity.

I did once believe in all those people who came and ask for donations for whatever organizations that they're "volunteering" for, until I was influenced by Robb who doesn't give a fuck about it as he doesn't believe in them. He said I'm too soft hearted and always giving in to help people without the sense to say "no". What he said was quite true as I always ended up buying those things from people who claimed to be from some charity organization or from someone in need of help.

There was once when I was walking out to eat, one guy came to ask me for RM 5 to refuel his motorbike as he was running low and out of money. After much persuasion, I ended up giving him RM 10 as he said he would return me the change after refueling. I waited there for quite some time but he didn't show up and Robb was waiting for me for dinner so I just left.

There were few other incidents where I helped some stranger but Robb just said that I was conned. Oh well, I would like to think that I managed to help make some changes in another person's life. But if they're really cheating me then to hell with them! Sigh. I managed to shield myself from all those people asking for charity soon after as I've been living with Robb for so long. I can't afford to keep handing out cash as my own supply is going lower by the day.

After a long period of avoiding those things, I broke the protective shield last week and gave in to another guy who was asking me to help buy some cards for charity. Feels good to be helping out again, and hopefully that guy is sincere. Guess it's enough about me, what about you? Do you lend out a helping hand if you're able to?

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Feelings..

Another day, another hour..
Your absence made my day so sour..
Waiting for the time to come..
To go home, where our hearts are one..

Longing for your lips on mine..
And your hugs warmly from behind..
Telling me that all will be well..
Shielding me from harm, you shall..

Gone were the days when I was free..
Doing anything, just being me..
Now all I can do is to force a smile..
And greet everyone that passes the aisle..

What is my direction I cannot see..
Drifting without oars, letting things be..
A wondering soul searching near and far..
For a sign, a path, a guiding star..
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Boring Life..

What I usually do during morning shifts..

0500 - Alarm rang, closed it and fell asleep.
0515 - Alarm rang again, fell asleep again.
0545 - Woke up to realize that I'm late, rushed to get ready.
0610 - Left the house to the bus stop.
0650 - Reached my workplace, still early. Zzz.
0658 - Punched in card and opened up Tower A.
0710 - Greet residents who were leaving for work.
0750 - Resident came to claim his deposit. Not good looking at all.
0820 - Called taxi for a resident who wants to go LCCT.
0830 - Taxi came, got RM 20 commission from him. Not bad!
0900 - Hungry, secretly ate some bread and Panadol to stop my toothache.
0930 - Accountant came to collect redemption tickets.
0940 - Helped her count money, lots of them.
1110 - Accidentally unlocked all doors, oops.
1130 - One Spanish guy came to pay his water charges.
1134 - Autopay for carpark jammed, customer paid at front desk.
1140 - Some guy came to complain about noise pollution. Has a huge bulge.
1200 - Went for my break, played DS and chatted on ebuddy.
1300 - Back to work.
1320 - A pretty young lady came to ask for a job.
1350 - Resident came to collect a parcel.
1430 - Resident called to inform of loss of access card.
1500 - Time to go home, but stuck there due to rain.
1530 - Went back.

Notice the time frame in between each happenings. I just sat there, opening the door whenever someone comes by using the computer, and stared at blanks with nothing to do. I miss my free time at home, and it always rains whenever my shift ends. Sigh.

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