Friday, April 24, 2009


"I think the hands represent the ability to do something, to act and change things for the better, even if the hands are small (even if your ability is limited). But more people together can change a lot. This is what i think the hands signify."

That quote was taken from YouTube where I found this video. I find it quite true that every little bit of help that we offer will change something, one way or another. Even so, most people have the mindset to keep to themselves and hardly ever lend a helping hand unless he or she has something to gain in return. Sometimes, I find it sad to be living in such a realistic world.

What's the point of teaching those morals and virtues to small children when grownups themselves do not practice it? It will only give them a sense of false security that the world is a nice and loving place to live in, such as in fairy tales. If it was taught realistically then they would be more prepared to grow up and face the world without much shock.

All around the world, there would be people in need of help such as the orphanages, old folks homes, and etc. There are still honest and kind people around who would do their share of helping around once awhile, but the amount is going down as time passes by. I would think it is because that people are less trusting now after being cheated by so many other fake organizations who manipulate their generosity.

I did once believe in all those people who came and ask for donations for whatever organizations that they're "volunteering" for, until I was influenced by Robb who doesn't give a fuck about it as he doesn't believe in them. He said I'm too soft hearted and always giving in to help people without the sense to say "no". What he said was quite true as I always ended up buying those things from people who claimed to be from some charity organization or from someone in need of help.

There was once when I was walking out to eat, one guy came to ask me for RM 5 to refuel his motorbike as he was running low and out of money. After much persuasion, I ended up giving him RM 10 as he said he would return me the change after refueling. I waited there for quite some time but he didn't show up and Robb was waiting for me for dinner so I just left.

There were few other incidents where I helped some stranger but Robb just said that I was conned. Oh well, I would like to think that I managed to help make some changes in another person's life. But if they're really cheating me then to hell with them! Sigh. I managed to shield myself from all those people asking for charity soon after as I've been living with Robb for so long. I can't afford to keep handing out cash as my own supply is going lower by the day.

After a long period of avoiding those things, I broke the protective shield last week and gave in to another guy who was asking me to help buy some cards for charity. Feels good to be helping out again, and hopefully that guy is sincere. Guess it's enough about me, what about you? Do you lend out a helping hand if you're able to?


Saturday, April 18, 2009


Another day, another hour..
Your absence made my day so sour..
Waiting for the time to come..
To go home, where our hearts are one..

Longing for your lips on mine..
And your hugs warmly from behind..
Telling me that all will be well..
Shielding me from harm, you shall..

Gone were the days when I was free..
Doing anything, just being me..
Now all I can do is to force a smile..
And greet everyone that passes the aisle..

What is my direction I cannot see..
Drifting without oars, letting things be..
A wondering soul searching near and far..
For a sign, a path, a guiding star..


Monday, April 13, 2009

Boring Life..

What I usually do during morning shifts..

0500 - Alarm rang, closed it and fell asleep.
0515 - Alarm rang again, fell asleep again.
0545 - Woke up to realize that I'm late, rushed to get ready.
0610 - Left the house to the bus stop.
0650 - Reached my workplace, still early. Zzz.
0658 - Punched in card and opened up Tower A.
0710 - Greet residents who were leaving for work.
0750 - Resident came to claim his deposit. Not good looking at all.
0820 - Called taxi for a resident who wants to go LCCT.
0830 - Taxi came, got RM 20 commission from him. Not bad!
0900 - Hungry, secretly ate some bread and Panadol to stop my toothache.
0930 - Accountant came to collect redemption tickets.
0940 - Helped her count money, lots of them.
1110 - Accidentally unlocked all doors, oops.
1130 - One Spanish guy came to pay his water charges.
1134 - Autopay for carpark jammed, customer paid at front desk.
1140 - Some guy came to complain about noise pollution. Has a huge bulge.
1200 - Went for my break, played DS and chatted on ebuddy.
1300 - Back to work.
1320 - A pretty young lady came to ask for a job.
1350 - Resident came to collect a parcel.
1430 - Resident called to inform of loss of access card.
1500 - Time to go home, but stuck there due to rain.
1530 - Went back.

Notice the time frame in between each happenings. I just sat there, opening the door whenever someone comes by using the computer, and stared at blanks with nothing to do. I miss my free time at home, and it always rains whenever my shift ends. Sigh.


Tuesday, April 07, 2009


Working life is so boring, I feel sleepy all the time. I miss home and Zuzu so much. Why can't money grow on trees? Sigh..


Sunday, April 05, 2009

First Step..

I'm going to start working tomorrow after "measuring road" for such a long period of time. It's gonna be hard for me to get used to it after being idle for all this time, not to mention that Zuzu is going to be more lonely than usual. Sigh. But still, I need the cash and so I have to take this chance to have my first step into the working life. I just hope that Zuzu will not be angry with me. Maybe I could get him a companion when I have enough to spare. Would need a bigger space though as the house is quite small. Maybe I can move to a nicer place when I earn enough.

The Nuffnang Music Bash 2009 was a successful one as I can see that everyone enjoyed themselves a lot, well except for me. The food served was nicer than the few previous events that I have attended, though it's not like I had much of it last night.

The music was nice, as most of them were taken from my PC I guess. Not much good looking people around except for one, and his name is Gary. Didn't know what his blog URL was though, just saw him from afar.

I had hopes for one particular prize, the AX belt which I chose with Robb when we were shopping for the prizes. But sadly, I didn't have the chance to even participate in it. Was feeling so down last night. Tried out for the sunglasses, but didn't get it as well as no one noticed that the winner had actually stopped for a slight second and continued to prolong his time. Sore loser I am. =)

One thing for sure, I'm very glad that Jason a.k.a. Cookiedonut was there with me. He accompanied me to walk around Pavilion before attending the party and gave me his opinion on the sweater/jacket or whatever it is called that i kinda like and was on sales.

He said it was nice as well and it looked good on me, which made me want to buy it more than before, and I eventually did. There goes my wallet. Hope I have enough to buy my working clothes. By the way, any opinions on this purchase? Original price was RM 109, and after discount it was just RM 33.

He was kinda lost in KL, so I followed his car and directed him to the party. Oh and he bought me a belated birthday present! Thanks Jason! *Hugz* He got me a t-shirt from Esprit, which is not cheap as the clothes there are very expensive. He told me he wanted to get me that belt that I love so much but they didn't have it at One Utama.

I was glad that he didn't get the chance to buy it cause the belt would be much more expensive than the t-shirt. RM 269 for a belt is just too much, especially for someone that you just knew for a short period of time.

There weren't much people when we arrived as Malaysians were known to be late all the time. We registered ourselves and went in to check the place out. I've seen it before as I was there with Robb earlier during the afternoon, so I showed him around. There was a corner where you could record your own MTV, but I think they only have one song but I'm not sure of the title. The other corner was for us to play a game from PS3. We didn't try any of it though.

Quite a number of people recognized me, due to Robb's popularity of course, and I only recognized some of them. Some of them dressed up until it took me some time to recognize them even though I knew them. Jason was with me all the time and he even tried to win the AX belt for me from the competition as I didn't get the chance to participate. He had to dance Beyonce's Single Ladies for one minute in front of everyone. He didn't know how to do it but he tried his best to follow the MTV.

I'm really really touched and happy that a friend that I have just known for a short period of time is doing all these things for me. Even though he didn't win the belt, but as soon as he said he was gonna try for it and went up the stage, I was already feeling very thankful and glad to have found such a friend. I'm glad he had fun dancing though, from what he told me. I would be lying though if I said that I wasn't disappointed that night, cause I was. I really wanted the belt a lot and thought I would have the chance to try winning it as I kinda knew how to dance Single Ladies a little. Even so, having Jason around to accompany me made me felt much better. :)

I still have not bought clothes for my work as I need to be wearing white shirts and black slacks. I only have one of each and I don't think it is sufficient. I don't even have a belt. Sigh. Guess I'll have to buy whatever I can find in Jusco later and dry up my bank even more. Wonder if I'll survive the month with such low cash. Food donations anyone?