Monday, December 05, 2005

New Month.. New Style~!!

Hie all~!! Went rebonding few days ago.. Kekeke.. Wish I could put a picture of me here but I guess you guys will just have to wait.. Not letting my ugly flat hair spoil my face.. Bleh~!! Need to wait till its not that flat then I will look better.. Kekeke.. This time the rebonding costs me only RM120 including hair treatment!! So much cheaper than the previous one.. Which costs like rm200 without treatment.. Won't be going back there again.. =P

Oh yea.. Went to the PC Fair in KLCC Convention Centre today.. Bought myself a new subwoofer from SonicGear.. Though I don't know much bout speakers.. But then I like the design and the quality is quite nice! Maybe I'm just easily satisfied.. Hehe.. Well.. This thing cost me RM109.. Was thinking of paying by card but they only accept cash.. Sigh.. Lucky I brought enough.. Or I would have went back disappointed.. Forgot to take a full picture of it but these are the pictures of my lovely speakers!! (And my lovely wallpaper from Final Fantasy 7 Advent Children.. Kekekek)

Well.. Thats all for now.. Have no idea what to write at the moment.. Be back with more updates soon!! (Hopefully.. Kekeke) Nitez..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Monday, November 28, 2005

Forehead With The Letter "L"..

After spending half my day playing the computer, less than an hour doing part of my assignment, and the whole night out in Bukit Bintang watching Harry Potter.. I came back with a blue mood.. I have no idea what triggered this sudden change of feeling but its been a long time since I've felt this way..

I feel so lost.. Again.. No idea what I am doing with my life.. No aims.. No goals.. Just wasting my time chatting online and playing online games.. I have assignments to settle.. Tutorials to finish.. But never really did them.. Tried to do my assignment but my so called effort usually ends in less than an hour.. I just can't make myself to finish all those work that I'm supposed to do.. Laziness got over me.. Maybe I just have no interest in it.. I dunno.. Don't even know what I want.. Such a loser..

Looking at people pursuing their goals.. Walking down the path that they wanted.. Fighting for their future.. Makes me feel helpless.. I'm just wasting my parents money by paying for my college bills in a course that I don't seem to be doing much.. I should just draw a letter "L" on my forehead.. Or maybe it's already there.. What's wrong with me? I wasn't like this before.. Being this lazy isn't who I was! Matt asked me to explore myself.. Get to know myself.. What I like.. What I'm good at.. But there's nothing but an empty space.. A dark entity.. Vacuum.. Sigh..

I can never decide.. This attitude of mine will ruin me soon.. Maybe it already has.. I don't know what I really want.. I don't know what I really like.. Hm.. What will happen to me in the future..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Plan Exposed..

Hi.. I'm back~!! Been awhile since I was able to sit in my own room and write my blog.. Didn't get to online till now.. What a relief.. =P Now that I'm back online.. Hopefully I can continue writting constantly instead of leaving huge spaces between my posts..

Remember about me mentioning something about some sort of a plan before Hari Raya? Well.. I went all the way to Ipoh to give Yaoi a suprise and also visit Ben for Hari Raya.. But someone spilled out to him that I was going! Not much of a suprise then.. But still he was very happy to know about it.. Bleh..

Went back to KL after that.. Yaoi came along.. Spent some time together.. Then he went back few days later.. Life goes on as usuall.. Getting along fine with my new roomates and housemates too.. Although most of them don't speak much.. Maybe if I stayed here longer then that would be different.. =D

Oh! Almost forgot.. I went to LQ at last! Was kinda fun.. Cold too.. Kekeke.. My 1st time there and they had a shower party! Water all over the place.. Dancing along with the music and water spraying all over us.. It was cool.. Matt kor took us back after that.. Felt sorry for his car.. Hopefully our wet butts didn't spoil his leather seats.. Hehehe..

Hm.. Not much of an update I would say.. Low on details now as there were too much to write.. Can't remember some of them anyway.. Never mind.. Just a short blog to fill you guys in on some of the happenings for the past few weeks.. ^^ Anyways.. Will be writting more soon.. Hopefully.. Till then.. Chaoz..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Monday, October 31, 2005

Moving Away!!

Ooooh.. How I wish time would go faster.. Soon I'd be rid of "The one who must not be named" and have my peace and quiet sleep that I longed for.. Don't have to see "Smeagol" running to every single mirror in the house and looking at his reflection for 30 to 90 minutes!! He'd fix his curly hair.. Apply wax.. Blow straight.. Etc.. Nothing seems to work though as from what I can see.. His hair looks the way it was before he applied all those chemicals.. Ugly!! Instead.. I'd have 2 good looking roomates living with me in my new room!! Bleh..

Was about to sleep just now.. Turned off the lights.. Went to my bed.. Turned my laptop around and sent some goodbye messages.. Then.. In he came.. And as usuall.. That inconsiderate bastard turned on the lights.. Went to his computer.. And turned on his MP3's.. Speakers! Not headphones! Damn him.. Now I can't sleep.. My friend asked me to talk to him.. But I'm sick of it.. This is not the 1st time he does this.. Told him long long time ago but he still repeats himself.. So what if he knew Daniel and Farah from Malaysian Idol? Very great huh? Eat my foot! No matter how popular he is among his other friends he's still some lowlife bastard to me.. Never does his share of cleaning up the house.. Cares for his ugly hair only.. I wish my housemates who are staying with him after this good luck cuz' they're gonna need lots of it.. Ish.. Spoilt my mood..

I've already moved some of my stuffs to my new room.. Alex is already living in there.. He has so many belongings!! Wonder how much assets Pau Zai will bring in too.. Hehe.. My cupboard's already there.. Still have to carry my table and my mattress there soon.. Won't be able to online though after I move there as the ports in the router are already all used up.. I have to buy myself a switch in order to online.. Sigh.. Spend spend spend.. All their fault.. Ish.. Got one nice unit don't wanna move there.. Fine now everyone's separated.. Happy? Selfish brats.. Don't even expect me to move back in with you guys after the landlord has left that so called nice house of yours.. Find yourself another victim..

Enough with them.. Back to me.. Yaoi is coming to KL this Saturday!! Can't wait to meet him.. He told me he's most probably gonna study in
Tar College too and coming in during the January intake.. If that is so.. He will try to pursuade his father to let him rent a room outside instead of staying in the lousy hostel that Tar College has.. Hehe.. If everything goes well then we'll be living in the same house!! Happy news at last.. =P Oh and for this week I have some plans up my sleeve but won't be writting it down yet.. Will only mention it after it is implemented.. Kekeke..

Ah.. It's so late already!! Better try to get some rest.. My body is aching from all the heavy lifting for the past few days.. I'll just go off the lights.. Not going to bother whether "Smeagol" needs the light or not.. He should get the idea after that.. Nitez guys..

Zach a.k.a.

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Thinking.. Thinking..

Hm.. How to continue from the previous post.. For the happenings in Penang I guess I won't be writting much.. You guys can just view it from one of my friend's posts.. Refer to Fansu in my list of blogs beside this website.. Something special happened though.. Something Fansu didn't mention in his blog.. And I think it's time to spill it all out here.. During one of those days in Penang.. Yaoi came to visit me.. And a relationship started.. A bond that brought us together.. Details about how and when it happened won't be mentioned.. I didn't write all this down before as I was still unable to let go of someone.. But I realised that I should appreciate someone who is right in front of me and cares for me a lot rather than hanging on to someone who is half the globe away and not having much free time even to chat.. I know I should wait but it's just too hard.. He has no time for me.. But Yaoi has always been there for me.. It's not hard to decide who is really right for me.. ^^

After returning from Penang.. There were more things to settle.. The most important one is to find a place to stay as my current landlord already sold the house.. And gave us a very short period to find another place and move out.. The dateline was on 9th of November.. No extention of date given.. So all 7 of us hurried and tried our best to look for another new unit so that all of us can move in together again.. But luck was not on our side.. It's hard to find a nice place like the unit I'm staying in now.. Especially during this season.. So as day passes by.. 2 of my housemates found themselves a small room to rent which leaves 5 of us to continue searching.. Now we're lack of 2 people and so I asked 2 of my friends to come join me there and they agreed.. After days of looking at rooms and houses.. We found one unit which quite satisfy our needs.. Discussed with the landlord as if we were really into it and even got him to agree to some of our terms..

I thought everything was fine.. Until suddenly they (my remaining housemates) decided they do not want to rent that unit and preferred to take the 2 medium rooms which we saw before.. And that leaves me homeless.. Only me.. I had to find a masteroom too as I've already promised my friends that I'd include them along before this.. But now.. I have to search for this room of mine when my so called friendly housemates have their secured rooms with a nice landlord.. How sweet of them to leave me like this.. They promised to find me a place.. But only one girl tried.. The others just sat around shaking their legs and waiting for the time to move in their lovely little rooms while I have to worry about not having a room for me and my 2 other friend.. Life is so cruel.. I suddenly feel so much hatred towards them.. After all.. It's not like I'm the blacksheep of the current house.. I did my share of work.. Did extra when others aren't doing their jobs.. But no one appreciates it.. I can clean up their mess most of the times but they can't even clean up the mess I made in the kitchen sink I made once.. How "nice" of them.. I finally see how cruel humans can be when times are desperate.. They only think for themselves.. I should just do that too and don't care about my other 2 friends but I cannot overcome myself if I ever break that promise..

Fine.. Enough with them.. I went to look for my room after that.. Found some but it was either too pricy or not suitable.. Got kinda worried as I need to move out soon.. If I cannot find a place fast I won't have anywhere to stay.. After looking around.. I found myself a room.. Well 2 rooms actually.. In the same unit.. I can take either one and the price is reasonable.. Felt relieved as I quite liked the place.. I quickly asked my friends for their opinion and ended up agreeing to rent the place as there were others who wanted the rooms too.. I thought everything was settled and I can rest peacefully.. But I was wrong.. I still can't sleep.. Wide awake.. Thinking.. So many questions flooding my mind.. So much worries.. But I have very few choices left.. This was the safest way.. There's nothing much I can do about it now..

During all those happenings.. One special person supported me in everyway he can.. You guys should know who.. =P Well.. He talked to me and calmed me down.. Promising that everything will turn out fine.. Giving me emotional support.. Loving me.. Hehe.. Although he's not here but everything he did for me was something that I cannot forget.. His support got me through this hardship without much sorrow.. I'm lucky to have him.. Very very lucky.. Not forgetting my other friends who talked to me and calmed me down too.. Especially Ben Ben.. My new found friend.. Hehe.. Thanks guys!! Life has its ups and downs.. Just see how you face it and make the best out of it.. Hopefully everything will really be fine for me after this sad period.. Wish me luck guys!

P.S. Sorry Yaoi.. I say wan to sleep earlier but didn't.. I really can't sleep.. Too much on my mind.. =X Must write part of it down before I forgot how to write again.. =X

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Sunday, October 16, 2005


Seems like an eternity since my last update.. Lots have happened.. But won't be writing it in detail here.. All sorts of emotions.. Happiness.. Sadness.. Confusions.. Etc.. Will just leave that for another day when I can sort everything out and write it in here..

Hm.. Went back to Penang after my exams.. Had a wonderful time back home.. Enjoying my mother's home cook food and also not forgetting those wonderful local Penang dishes all around the island.. Had almost all of the food that I liked.. Only missed one.. The curry mee near my granny's house.. Went there but the stall wasn't open.. Sigh.. Oh well.. Never mind.. Next trip back must eat that for sure.. ^^

Few of my friends came to Penang for their holidays too.. Took them all around the island.. Well.. Not literally though.. Hehe.. Took them to those famous places such as Kek Lok Si, Penang Hill and Gurney Drive.. Went to enjoy all the nice Penang food.. ^^ One of them even walked around the town area by himself.. Even I myself never did that.. Hehe.. Oh yea.. Watched Sky High with my housemates and Yaoi (not his real name).. Was quite nice.. Not forgetting the outing with some new friends in Batu Ferringhi.. Bought some souveniors and went to the beach too..

Hm.. Continue later.. Lazy wanna write more.. Below are some pictures taken in Penang.. Hehe.. Enjoy.. Tata..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Thursday, September 22, 2005



I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still forever

You are the sun
You are my light
And you're the last thing on my mind
Before I go to sleep at night

You're always around
When I'm in need
When trouble's on my mind
You put my soul at ease

There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
So many reasons that I
Want to spend forever with you

I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I'll be loving you forever

We had our fun
And we've made mistakes
But who'd have guessed along that road
We'd learn to give and take

It's so much more
Then I could have dreamed
You make loving you
So easy for me

There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
That is the reason that I
Want to share forever with you


Cuz this is a world
Where lovers often goes astray
But if we love each other
We won't go, won't go that way

So put your doubts aside
Do what it takes to make it right
Cuz I'll love you forever
No one can tear us apart


I just want you to know that
I can't eat, I can't sleep
I can't breathe, whenever I'm without you
When we walk, I stand tall
When I talk, I only talk about you girl

(Repeat chorus to fade)

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Rain Drops From Heaven..

My exams are finally over!! But I've still got to stay back for extra MYOB classes.. Before this I was eager to go back to Penang.. But somehow I'm glad I stayed back.. Met a lot of people yesterday.. Nice people..

It rained this afternoon before I went to class.. Luckily my one of my classmate drove to college so she gave me a ride.. It was so cold in the computer lab.. Was hungry too as I didn't eat anything since morning.. My class starts at 2.00p.m. and ends at 6.00p.m. so I had to wait till everything is over before I get to eat my 1st meal.. Which was my dinner.. It stopped raining by then.. And the weather was so cooling and refreshing.. I can feel the chilling wind blowing against my face.. A nice day to go out..

Sigh.. Forgive me.. I can't seem to be writting properly these few days.. It's like I've lost touch in most of the things I do.. I can't seem to put my feelings into words anymore.. Anyone care to help me? =D

Ok back to the topic.. Was in IRC when Yeoth online.. We chatted awhile and somehow made a last minute date and went out to yum cha somewhere in Damansara.. Got prepared and then went down to catch a bus to the LRT station.. Took me around 40 minutes to reach KL central.. Including the bus ride though.. Hehe.. But the journey was quite nice.. Saw a cute little baby sitting on his mother's lap.. Sms-ed Yeoth and told him about it and it seems like he likes small kids too! What a coincidence..

He was already there when I reached KL Central.. I got into his car and we went to Starbucks for a drink.. He bought one chocolate cake too and we shared it.. Was quite nice.. We sat there and chat until the shop closed.. Hehe.. Then went for a walk and continued chatting.. Talked bout lots of stuff.. Old memories mostly.. Memories that brought both happiness and sadness.. We stopped at a basketball court nearby and just lie there.. Watching the sky and enjoying the cool midnight breeze.. We can see the moon clearly and it was quite a beautiful sight.. Too bad none of us had a camera phone.. Poor people.. Lol.. No stars though.. How nice if time would just stop then.. ^^

He took me home later on as the LRT's were closed already.. Got back.. Sat on my chair.. And came online.. Took me quite long to write this though.. As I've mentioned above.. I seem to lost touch.. ^^ But its ok.. I still manage to finish this small little chapter of my life.. Hopefully I can find my inspiration soon.. So I guess I'll just leave now and write again next time.. Chaoz.. Oh yea.. Thanks for a wonderful night Yeoth.. Enjoyed chatting with you.. ^^ Goodnight everyone..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Friday, September 09, 2005

Exam Season.. Sigh..

Today is the first day of the exam week.. Some of my housemates are having their papers today.. I can sense their stress throughout the entire week.. As for me.. I am as relaxed as usuall.. Pretending as though nothing has happened.. As though I have no exams.. No worries.. No nothing.. But the truth is.. I have two papers to sit for~!! And those two papers are not easy.. But till now I haven't revised a single thing at all~!! I seemed to have lost interest in my course.. To make it even worse.. I don't know what course that interests me.. Maybe a little curious to find out more about Hotel Management.. But then.. What if I end up not liking it again? I will be wasting my parents money and wasting their hopes on me.. What should I do?

I feel so lost these days.. And what happened recently(got dumped..) made me even more lost.. I still miss him a lot.. Looking through his messages in my handphone.. Playing with the chain he gave me.. The dried rose.. The book.. Thinking about all those times we spent together.. But all those are nothing but memories.. A chapter in my life that started well and ended in sadness.. Felt like a wandering ghost floating around with no reason.. No purpose.. I wonder how is he now.. Sigh..

There seemed to be a lot of break ups in this month of September.. My friend told me two of his friends broke up.. Even my housemate broke up with her boyfriend.. Their relationship had already survived for four years but still ended up like this.. Is love such a hard thing to maintain? Sigh.. After all these happenings.. I wonder if I will ever dare love again.. It scares me to think that anything possible could happen in a relationship.. I don't wanna go through this pain any more.. My friend told me not to think so much about the pain and try to think of those happy times I had when he was with me.. But how could I? Even if I could.. My mind would eventually drift to the night when he told me that we were not meant to be.. Hm..

Seems that I've drifted off my main topic here.. But who cares.. This is my blog.. My world.. My only place to hide.. My dreamland.. (>.<)"

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

My Sign..

Pisces, one of the less flamboyant signs and its natives are more ordinary than those of, for example, Leo, Scorpio and Aquarius. Pisceans possess a gentle, patient, malleable nature. They have many generous qualities and are friendly, good natured, kind and compassionate, sensitive to the feelings of those around them, and respond with the utmost sympathy and tact to any suffering they encounter. They are deservedly popular with all kinds of people, partly because their easygoing, affectionate, submissive natures offer no threat or challenge to stronger and more exuberant characters. They accept the people around them and the circumstances in which they find themselves rather than trying to adapt them to suit themselves, and they patiently wait for problems to sort themselves out rather than take the initiative in solving them. They are more readily concerned with the problems of others than with their own.

Their natures tend to be too otherworldly for the practical purposes of living in this world as it is. They exist emotionally rather than rationally, instinctively more than intellectually. Their willpower, ambition they long to be recognized as greatly creative and reasoning are all limited and, however anxious they are to fulfill themselves, their concentration is weak; they lack decisiveness and they are easily diverted from their purposes. They are apt to live a shiftless sort of life, searching for some career in which they can really find themselves, but being easily discouraged they become despondent, feeling unappreciated and moving on to something or someone else. They also dislike disciple and confinement within routine the nine-to-five life is not for them - and confinement by codes of behavior. Any rebellion they make against convention is personal, however, as they do not have the energy to battle against the Establishment.

Pisceans tend to withdraw into a dream world where their qualities can bring mental satisfaction and sometimes, but by no means inevitably, fame and financial reward for they are gifted artistically. They are also versatile and intuitive, have quick understanding, observe and listen well, and are receptive to new ideas and atmospheres. All these factors can combine to produce remarkable creativity in literature, music and art. They may count among their gifts mediumistic qualities which can give them a feeling that their best work comes from outside themselves, "Whispered beyond the misted curtains, screening this world from that." Even when they cannot express themselves creatively they have a greater than average instinct for, and love of, beauty in art and nature, a catlike appreciation of luxury and pleasure, and a yearning for new sensations and travel to remote, exotic places.

They are never egotistical in their personal relationships and give more than they ask from their friends. They are sexually delicate, in the extreme almost asexual, and most Pisceans would want a relationship in which the partner's mind and spirit rather than the body resonated with their own. Unfortunately they can be easily misled by a lover who courts them delicately and in marriage makes them unhappy by a coarser sexuality than they expected. They are nevertheless intensely loyal and home-loving and will remain faithful - though their dreamy and impractical natures do not fit them to keep a tidy and well-run house.

In their employment they are better working either by themselves or in subordinate positions. Their talents are individual in a commercial business or similar undertaking they would be afraid to manage more than a small department, worrying always that they would fail in a crisis. They can make fair secretaries and bookkeepers. Their sympathy equips them for work in charities catering for the needy, as nurses looking after the sick and as veterinary surgeons caring for animals. As librarians or astronomers they can satisfy their mental wanderlust, and their fondness for "faraway places with strange-sounding names" may turn them into sailors or travellers. Many architects and lawyers are Pisceans, and when the creative abilities are combined with gifts of imitation and the ability to enter into the feelings of others, Pisceans find their fulfillment on the stage. Their psychic and spiritual qualities can lead them into careers in the church or as mediums and mystics. They may find an outlet for their creativity as caterers, and are said to make good detectives because they can imagine themselves in the place of criminals and understand how their minds would work. In technical occupations they are well employed in dealing with anaesthetics, fluids, gases and plastics. Because of their lively versatility and inability to concentrate overmuch on any one project, Pisceans often simultaneously follow more than one occupation.

Their faults are exasperating rather than vicious. They can be oversubtle, oversensitive and overemotional. In business they can be unreliable, idle, careless, impractical and ineffective. Their friends may find their diffidence and sense of their own unimportance irritating and may eventually want to shake off acquaintances who not only lack initiative but are peevish and extravagantly temperamental in their dependence on them. Other faults of which the negative Piscean is accused are fickleness, gossiping, indiscretion, effeminacy and gullibility. They may not be able to avoid being sickly, but their fretting hypochondria can wear out a saint's patience. They can be intellectually dishonest and also actually fraudulent, deceitful and hypocritical. They are often indecisive in important matters yet will uphold absurdities with the obstinacy of the weak. When they feel themselves rejected, lonely or failures, or simply through feeble self-indulgence, they will find refuge in drugs or the bottle.

  • Solitude to dream in
  • Mystery in all its guises
  • Anything discarded to stay discarded
  • The ridiculas
  • like to get 'lost'
  • the obvious
  • being critized
  • feeling all at sea about something
  • know-it-alls
  • pedantry
Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Monday, September 05, 2005


It's over.. No more happy ending for me.. All I have left is this feeling of loneliness.. But this is nothing new.. This sadness.. This pain.. I should be used to it by now.. But it still hurt a lot.. He gave me some happy moments.. But I rather stay in the dark than having a short period of hapiness.. A short period of hope.. He was everything to me.. My life.. My love.. Now.. Everything that I felt.. Everything that I once knew.. Broken.. Shattered.. Crushed.. I don't wanna go through this anymore.. Please.. Don't give me hope if you're going to push me down this dark gloomy cliff again.. All I can do now is cry.. And cry.. And cry.. Life was never fair to me.. Gave me one tiny hope just to see me fall again.. Never fair.. T_T

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

(Destiny Child)

It's over and done
But the heartache lives on inside
And who's the one you're clinging to
Instead of me tonight?

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You'll never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
Lost in the song
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to hold me tight?
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

I'm there at your side,
I'm part of all the things you are
But you've got a part of someone else
You've got to find your shining star

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You'll never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
Lost in the song
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to hold me tight?
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You'll never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
Lost in the song
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to hold me tight?
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

Saturday, September 03, 2005

Happy Ending.. Not..

Today.. My friend told me something that changed my mood entirely.. Won't be leaking anything here now as what he told me was yet to be confirmed.. It might be true as I felt it myself for quite some time already.. Hope I can settle it as soon as possible.. Hope it is just a misunderstanding.. Whatever it is.. Things are not going to be the same from now onwards.. Sad sad day.. (>.<)

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Happy Ending
(Avril Lavigne)

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

Oh Oh, Oh Oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh Oh,Oh Oh, Oh huh

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do, (All the shit that you do)

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be


It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

(Chorus) x 2

Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh Oh,Oh Oh, Ohhhhh Oh Oh,Oh Oh, Ohhhhh

Wednesday, August 31, 2005


@@" Went out with Eyri, Josh, Joa and Calvin just now to a party organized by Eyri's godsis.. Was kinda akward when we first reached as we didn't know anyone there.. How nice if Jason was with me.. >.< But I kinda blend in as they were quite friendly.. Talked about college and stuff.. After awhile, we had some games going on and it was kinda fun playing with one big group of people.. Me, Joa and Calvin won both of the games played and got some kind of health product as our award.. =P There were other games later on but we had to leave as it was quite late and we didn't want to get caught in the traffic so we left..

On the way back to my apartment.. We saw cars stopping beside the highway waiting for the fireworks to start.. We can see KLCC from that highway but didn't want to stop there as it was illegal to do so.. Reached my place around 12a.m. and we were able to see some fireworks from my balcony.. After a short rest.. We went to the kitchen and took out all the things we were able to find and made some spaghetti~!! Well.. It was too much actually and we couldn't finish it.. Hehe.. Everyone was bloated.. =P They went back after awhile as it was kinda late.. But we had fun.. ^^ It would be so much better if Jason was with me.. Too bad he's too busy with his work.. Sigh.. Hope he's alright..

Kinda short blog today as I'm feeling quite tired.. Still can't get back that old "feel" to write a better and longer blog.. Wonder how long will I take before I can make it interesting again.. Well.. I better go back to sleep so I can dream of him tonight.. Hehe.. Oh ya.. It was nice to meet you Calvin.. Let's go Dota next time.. Hehe.. ^^ Chaoz..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Sunday, August 28, 2005

Mixed Emotions..

So many things to write yet I have no idea how to put it in words.. Seems like I have lost my touch to write.. What has happened to me? I feel so insecure these days and kinda sensitive too.. I used to be ok with him teasing me about how all those pretty girls and good looking guys appear in his life or about those people that has feelings for him.. But I get jealous easily now and felt insecure.. Felt like he'd leave me anytime soon..

I felt happy when I met him today as I haven't seen him for like a week.. Missed him so much.. But something about today seems different.. Different from how he used to treat me.. He didnt even hold my hand when we were in the cinema.. I was so sad.. And the show we were watching was a love story too.. So got kinda emotional.. Was feeling so down..

But when he was driving me back to my place.. We talked like usuall and held his hand tightly.. Everything just felt like what it used to be.. Felt better at that moment.. Why am I feeling all this mixed emotions? Am I too sensitive? Or is it that I miss him too much.. Sigh.. I don't know how I should feel now.. I just know I love him alot.. Hope he feels the same.. Well.. Time to sleep.. Very tired.. Will write again when I get back my "feel".. Goodnight..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Journey To The West..

As usuall.. I overslept again and missed my 8a.m. lecture.. Sigh.. Oh ya.. Forgot to tell you guys that I'm back in KL.. Didn't update my blog for quite some time as I can't find anything to write.. Was having headaches few days ago and it somehow stopped me from spilling my daily life into this website.. But now here I am.. Sitting beside the window, looking at my laptop and enjoying the midnight breeze..

Well.. Since I'ved missed my lecture I decided to sleep again.. Woke up around 11 something and got prepared as I had to meet my friend for lunch.. Went to Sky's Coffee Shop and had a bowl of Hokkien Mee.. After that I went to the LRT Station with Kok Yee to meet another friend there.. 3 of us got to the LRT and went to Taman Jaya and wait for Vern to come and fetch us.. Nothing much happened.. Waited in A&W's and then went to Amcorp Mall awhile before Vern arrived and took us to Puchong.. Met up with Andy and his friend there and then spent some time in a coffee shop nearby before going to the cyber cafe..

After all the trouble of going so far to meet up with them and having Vern to come fetch us.. We were disappointed as the guild war was cancelled.. Sigh.. What to do.. We ended up playing dota.. Hehehehe.. After playing for few rounds we went to dinner at a restaurant nearby.. It was the same place Andy took us during my 1st meeting with the whole gang.. Again he treated us.. Such a nice guy.. =P Well.. Vern went back after that and Andy fetched us all home from Puchong to Setapak.. Quite a distance.. There goes another day.. So Jason.. How's your day?

It is nice to be able to get to know people like them in the virtual world especially in Ragnarok as there are lots of hackers and scammers.. Even though we've known each other for only a short period but people like Kok Yee, Vern and Andy really made me feel honoured to be their friend.. They really treasure friendships and they are fun to be with.. Looks like all those rumours about online friends are not completely real.. Although there are lots of people who is not sincere but there are also people who are sincere in the internet.. And I'm lucky to get to meet sincere friends through the internet.. ^^

So Vern.. I've mentioned you.. Must belanja me hor next time.. Hehehe.. Just kidding.. I'll stop for now and come back with more updates soon.. Hopefully.. =P Miss my dear.. Muakz!! Goodnightz..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Friday, August 12, 2005

Fresh Air~!!

Finally.. Away from KL and back in Penang!! Land of fresh air.. Nice and cheap food.. And hot bath!! Can't believe I actually came back here.. Made that decision few hours ago when my housemate asked me whether I'm going back to Penang.. Well.. Now I'm back!!

It was quite a rush actually.. As soon as I decided to come back.. I packed my things instantly.. And went to Pudu with Sarah (one of my housemates) straight away.. Reached there around 9.00p.m. and went to the counter to change the time of our trip.. The ticket she bought was actually for Friday evening's bus but we changed our minds.. Hehe.. Got the 12.45a.m. bus as there were no earlier trip available..

Went to McDonalds to wait as there is nothing much to do for that few hours of boredom.. It eventually closed around 11.30p.m. so we had to find a new place to waste our time.. Even Starbucks is closed.. Sigh.. Had to go back to Pudu and sit there till our bus comes.. It was so hot in there!! Fans not working.. People walking in and out.. Worse of all.. The haze.. (>_<) Since there's nothing to do there.. We just sat somewhere not so hot and listened to the radio from her Nokia handphone while I was busy sms-ing with Jason.. Miss him so much.. =P

The bus finally came around 12.15a.m. and we quickly went down as we were quite hot and can't wait to get into the bus.. When we got in there was a couple sitting on our seats.. I assumed that they were in their mid 40's.. The person in charge there eventually came and somehow they end up arguing and shouting at each other in the bus.. Felt so bad.. (-_-)" Well.. We got back our seats at last.. Nothing much happened on the way back.. Slept most of the time.. But it was quite disturbing as I saw a few baby cockroaches scattering around.. So disgusting.. Lucky the mother wasnt around.. Lol..

Well.. Now I'm sitting in my living room writing this blog.. Thinking of someone.. =P He should be sleeping like a pig in his bed now.. Just hope that the haze didn't affect his health.. Asked him to follow me back to Penang actually.. But he cannot make it.. Sigh.. Well.. Nothing much I can do or write now.. Wanna go make myself something to eat.. Till next time.. Chaoz!! Oh yea.. Good morning!! Hehe.. Jason.. This song is for you.. =D Enjoy..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Miss You Like Crazy


I used to call you my girl
I used to call you my friend
I used to call you the love
The love that I never had

When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again

I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of everyday
Girl I'm so down when your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy

You're all that I want
You're all that I need
Can't you see how I feel
Can't you see that my pain's so real

When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again


Wednesday, August 10, 2005

I Can't Breathe~!!

Sheesh.. It's getting harder and harder to breathe in this hazardous condition.. Haze getting thicker every single day.. Weather getting humid.. I wonder how all those people with asthma survive in this cruel environment.. I cannot stand it anymore!! If this keeps on for like two more days I might most probably take a bus and go back to Penang where I can breathe clean and fresh air.. Not to forget my mother's delicious home cook food.. Oh and Penang's famous Laksa.. Char Koay Teow.. Hm.. Yummy.. =P~

Well.. Back to my topic.. I can just hope that all my family members and my friends are in good condition.. Heard that some students fainted in school.. Maybe I should faint too.. So that my college can close down for a few days.. Lol.. I just hate the haze.. I can't do anything without feeling uncomfortable.. Like today I was stuck at home the whole day.. Not feeling like doing anything.. Even the air smells like burnt wood.. Sigh.. I wonder how is Jason doing.. =D

Went to KLIA last night with Jason to say goodbye to his ex-girlfriend.. That was the 1st time I've met her.. She's kinda cute in her own way and quite friendly too.. Even her friends are cool.. Hehe.. Too bad I didn't have the chance to get to know her earlier.. Well.. Maybe next time.. ^.^

Hm.. Nothing much to write today.. Didn't do much anyway.. Stupid haze.. Spoiled my day.. Hopefully things will get better tomorrow when I wake up.. Kinda tired now.. Not enough sleep last night.. So.. I guess I'm just gonna stop here and come back some other time.. Take care guyz.. Goodnight..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Truth Revealed..

Hm.. To think I was hiding my identity from everyone when all of them already know the truth.. And hiding it from me.. How ironic.. Well.. Who cares.. I found someone I love.. I don't care if my friends are talking behind my back.. I am who I am.. I don't have to explain much to them.. =)

Things are getting on quite well.. Except for my studies.. Can't seem to get myself to study anything these days.. Maybe I'm just not interested in accounts any more.. Or am I just plain lazy? God knows.. Hm.. Been listening to some interesting chinese songs these days.. Too bad I can't understand some of the songs.. But the tunes are nice.. Hope I can learn to sing it someday.. =P

Been to quite a number of places lately.. One Utama.. Sunway Piramid.. Midvalley.. Packed with people walking in and out of shops due to the Mega Sales.. Lots of discounts.. So tempting.. Found a shirt I like though.. But as always.. No size.. What a bummer.. Oh yea.. Before I forget.. DO NOT WATCH SEVEN SWORDS!! One of the worst movies ever.. Wasted my money.. Zzz.. But the company was nice though.. Not telling you who.. *Blek*

Well.. Its late.. I better stop here and continue another day.. Before that.. Let me share a song with you guys.. A song that I treasure a lot.. This song means a lot to me as it relates to how I met my loved one.. Enjoy..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

(Kylie Minogue)

Fragile, seems I opened up to quick and all my dreams were woken up
I slowly lost my fight
With every single man a river cried

I had no sensation, completely numb I felt no satisfaction
I thought no one could ever get me high again
I swear I was not looking

I've waited so long, I thought the real thing was a fake
I thought it was a tool to break me down
You prove me wrong again

If love were liquid it would drown me in a placeless place refine me
In a heart shape come around me and then melt me slowly down
If love were human it would know me in a lost space come and show me
Hold me and control me and then melt me slowly down, like chocolate

Tastes so good my hearts been mended, who'd have thought it would?
An empty bed and still I won the catch, a man who I love and who loves me back

I've waited so long for love to heal me, so I'd feel it
Thought it wasn't real and then you came
You prove me wrong again


Come here, zoom in, catch the smile
There's no doubt it's for you and I'm addicted tonight

Just one look boy to mellow it out
Just one heart here to save me now
Your candy kisses are sweet I know
Hold me tight baby, don't let go

Saturday, July 30, 2005

A Day To Remember..

Hm.. How do I start this.. Bah.. So much to tell yet don't know how to begin.. Jason!! Help me out here.. Well.. All I can say is its been a very long time since I've been so happy.. Something happened today at 10.15PM and changed my life completely.. But I won't be leaking out any info here.. Hehe.. It shall remain a secret.. You can ask me personally though.. =P

Zzz.. Lets just listen to this song and go to sleep.. Kinda tired today.. Shall definitely write more next time.. Goodnight folkz.. Enjoy.. (Sorry I don't know how to put the song here.. So I'll just paste the lyrics here for the moment.. Hehe..)

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

One Sweet Day
(Mariah Carey & Boyz II Men)

Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away

Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

Darling I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared


Although the sun will never shine the same again
I'll always look to a brighter day
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray


Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say

Friday, July 22, 2005

I'm Back~!!

Yay!! Got my very own blogspot at last.. Meant to do this earlier but I have no time and no internet connection.. I've just installed streamyx recently so now here I am.. =P It's been a long time since I've written something on the internet.. Life in KL.. I've been dreaming of living here for the past few years.. Thinking of how it would feel to have total freedom and space.. Well.. I'm here at last!! I'm starting to miss my home though.. My mother's cooking.. Sigh.. Humans.. Never satisfied with what they have.. Oh yea!! I just bought this laptop few days ago.. Its so nice!! I'm loving my laptop more each day.. Hehe.. And now that I have streamyx.. I won't have to go out that often and spend so much money.. =P

Hm.. So much to tell here but don't know what to write.. Met quite a lot of new friends here.. Mostly online friends.. Went out to yum cha once a while.. Hehe.. Quite fun.. On the other hand.. I seem to feel less comfortable with my housemates.. I knew all of them before this.. Old friends from Penang.. But somehow I felt something different these few days.. Maybe I changed.. One of my roomate gets on my nerves all the time.. But I just keep quiet.. No point making everyone unhappy.. I just keep to myself now and do my own stuff.. Hardly talk to any of them anymore unless they come and ask me stuffs.. Hm..

Nuf' said.. Got to stop myself from writing all those sad stories here.. Hehe.. Should be glad that I know lots of nicer friends during my stay here.. =P Well.. My brain's worn out.. Didn't eat anything since this morning.. Got to go find some food.. Hehe.. Till next time.. Chaoz..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield