Thursday, September 22, 2005

Forever..

Forever
(Damage)


I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still forever

You are the sun
You are my light
And you're the last thing on my mind
Before I go to sleep at night

You're always around
When I'm in need
When trouble's on my mind
You put my soul at ease

There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
So many reasons that I
Want to spend forever with you

(Chorus)
I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I'll be loving you forever

We had our fun
And we've made mistakes
But who'd have guessed along that road
We'd learn to give and take

It's so much more
Then I could have dreamed
You make loving you
So easy for me

There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
That is the reason that I
Want to share forever with you

(Chorus)

Cuz this is a world
Where lovers often goes astray
But if we love each other
We won't go, won't go that way

So put your doubts aside
Do what it takes to make it right
Cuz I'll love you forever
No one can tear us apart

(Chorus)

I just want you to know that
I can't eat, I can't sleep
I can't breathe, whenever I'm without you
When we walk, I stand tall
When I talk, I only talk about you girl

(Repeat chorus to fade)

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Rain Drops From Heaven..

My exams are finally over!! But I've still got to stay back for extra MYOB classes.. Before this I was eager to go back to Penang.. But somehow I'm glad I stayed back.. Met a lot of people yesterday.. Nice people..

It rained this afternoon before I went to class.. Luckily my one of my classmate drove to college so she gave me a ride.. It was so cold in the computer lab.. Was hungry too as I didn't eat anything since morning.. My class starts at 2.00p.m. and ends at 6.00p.m. so I had to wait till everything is over before I get to eat my 1st meal.. Which was my dinner.. It stopped raining by then.. And the weather was so cooling and refreshing.. I can feel the chilling wind blowing against my face.. A nice day to go out..

Sigh.. Forgive me.. I can't seem to be writting properly these few days.. It's like I've lost touch in most of the things I do.. I can't seem to put my feelings into words anymore.. Anyone care to help me? =D

Ok back to the topic.. Was in IRC when Yeoth online.. We chatted awhile and somehow made a last minute date and went out to yum cha somewhere in Damansara.. Got prepared and then went down to catch a bus to the LRT station.. Took me around 40 minutes to reach KL central.. Including the bus ride though.. Hehe.. But the journey was quite nice.. Saw a cute little baby sitting on his mother's lap.. Sms-ed Yeoth and told him about it and it seems like he likes small kids too! What a coincidence..

He was already there when I reached KL Central.. I got into his car and we went to Starbucks for a drink.. He bought one chocolate cake too and we shared it.. Was quite nice.. We sat there and chat until the shop closed.. Hehe.. Then went for a walk and continued chatting.. Talked bout lots of stuff.. Old memories mostly.. Memories that brought both happiness and sadness.. We stopped at a basketball court nearby and just lie there.. Watching the sky and enjoying the cool midnight breeze.. We can see the moon clearly and it was quite a beautiful sight.. Too bad none of us had a camera phone.. Poor people.. Lol.. No stars though.. How nice if time would just stop then.. ^^

He took me home later on as the LRT's were closed already.. Got back.. Sat on my chair.. And came online.. Took me quite long to write this though.. As I've mentioned above.. I seem to lost touch.. ^^ But its ok.. I still manage to finish this small little chapter of my life.. Hopefully I can find my inspiration soon.. So I guess I'll just leave now and write again next time.. Chaoz.. Oh yea.. Thanks for a wonderful night Yeoth.. Enjoyed chatting with you.. ^^ Goodnight everyone..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Friday, September 09, 2005

Exam Season.. Sigh..

Today is the first day of the exam week.. Some of my housemates are having their papers today.. I can sense their stress throughout the entire week.. As for me.. I am as relaxed as usuall.. Pretending as though nothing has happened.. As though I have no exams.. No worries.. No nothing.. But the truth is.. I have two papers to sit for~!! And those two papers are not easy.. But till now I haven't revised a single thing at all~!! I seemed to have lost interest in my course.. To make it even worse.. I don't know what course that interests me.. Maybe a little curious to find out more about Hotel Management.. But then.. What if I end up not liking it again? I will be wasting my parents money and wasting their hopes on me.. What should I do?

I feel so lost these days.. And what happened recently(got dumped..) made me even more lost.. I still miss him a lot.. Looking through his messages in my handphone.. Playing with the chain he gave me.. The dried rose.. The book.. Thinking about all those times we spent together.. But all those are nothing but memories.. A chapter in my life that started well and ended in sadness.. Felt like a wandering ghost floating around with no reason.. No purpose.. I wonder how is he now.. Sigh..

There seemed to be a lot of break ups in this month of September.. My friend told me two of his friends broke up.. Even my housemate broke up with her boyfriend.. Their relationship had already survived for four years but still ended up like this.. Is love such a hard thing to maintain? Sigh.. After all these happenings.. I wonder if I will ever dare love again.. It scares me to think that anything possible could happen in a relationship.. I don't wanna go through this pain any more.. My friend told me not to think so much about the pain and try to think of those happy times I had when he was with me.. But how could I? Even if I could.. My mind would eventually drift to the night when he told me that we were not meant to be.. Hm..

Seems that I've drifted off my main topic here.. But who cares.. This is my blog.. My world.. My only place to hide.. My dreamland.. (>.<)"

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

My Sign..

Pisces, one of the less flamboyant signs and its natives are more ordinary than those of, for example, Leo, Scorpio and Aquarius. Pisceans possess a gentle, patient, malleable nature. They have many generous qualities and are friendly, good natured, kind and compassionate, sensitive to the feelings of those around them, and respond with the utmost sympathy and tact to any suffering they encounter. They are deservedly popular with all kinds of people, partly because their easygoing, affectionate, submissive natures offer no threat or challenge to stronger and more exuberant characters. They accept the people around them and the circumstances in which they find themselves rather than trying to adapt them to suit themselves, and they patiently wait for problems to sort themselves out rather than take the initiative in solving them. They are more readily concerned with the problems of others than with their own.

Their natures tend to be too otherworldly for the practical purposes of living in this world as it is. They exist emotionally rather than rationally, instinctively more than intellectually. Their willpower, ambition they long to be recognized as greatly creative and reasoning are all limited and, however anxious they are to fulfill themselves, their concentration is weak; they lack decisiveness and they are easily diverted from their purposes. They are apt to live a shiftless sort of life, searching for some career in which they can really find themselves, but being easily discouraged they become despondent, feeling unappreciated and moving on to something or someone else. They also dislike disciple and confinement within routine the nine-to-five life is not for them - and confinement by codes of behavior. Any rebellion they make against convention is personal, however, as they do not have the energy to battle against the Establishment.

Pisceans tend to withdraw into a dream world where their qualities can bring mental satisfaction and sometimes, but by no means inevitably, fame and financial reward for they are gifted artistically. They are also versatile and intuitive, have quick understanding, observe and listen well, and are receptive to new ideas and atmospheres. All these factors can combine to produce remarkable creativity in literature, music and art. They may count among their gifts mediumistic qualities which can give them a feeling that their best work comes from outside themselves, "Whispered beyond the misted curtains, screening this world from that." Even when they cannot express themselves creatively they have a greater than average instinct for, and love of, beauty in art and nature, a catlike appreciation of luxury and pleasure, and a yearning for new sensations and travel to remote, exotic places.

They are never egotistical in their personal relationships and give more than they ask from their friends. They are sexually delicate, in the extreme almost asexual, and most Pisceans would want a relationship in which the partner's mind and spirit rather than the body resonated with their own. Unfortunately they can be easily misled by a lover who courts them delicately and in marriage makes them unhappy by a coarser sexuality than they expected. They are nevertheless intensely loyal and home-loving and will remain faithful - though their dreamy and impractical natures do not fit them to keep a tidy and well-run house.

In their employment they are better working either by themselves or in subordinate positions. Their talents are individual in a commercial business or similar undertaking they would be afraid to manage more than a small department, worrying always that they would fail in a crisis. They can make fair secretaries and bookkeepers. Their sympathy equips them for work in charities catering for the needy, as nurses looking after the sick and as veterinary surgeons caring for animals. As librarians or astronomers they can satisfy their mental wanderlust, and their fondness for "faraway places with strange-sounding names" may turn them into sailors or travellers. Many architects and lawyers are Pisceans, and when the creative abilities are combined with gifts of imitation and the ability to enter into the feelings of others, Pisceans find their fulfillment on the stage. Their psychic and spiritual qualities can lead them into careers in the church or as mediums and mystics. They may find an outlet for their creativity as caterers, and are said to make good detectives because they can imagine themselves in the place of criminals and understand how their minds would work. In technical occupations they are well employed in dealing with anaesthetics, fluids, gases and plastics. Because of their lively versatility and inability to concentrate overmuch on any one project, Pisceans often simultaneously follow more than one occupation.

Their faults are exasperating rather than vicious. They can be oversubtle, oversensitive and overemotional. In business they can be unreliable, idle, careless, impractical and ineffective. Their friends may find their diffidence and sense of their own unimportance irritating and may eventually want to shake off acquaintances who not only lack initiative but are peevish and extravagantly temperamental in their dependence on them. Other faults of which the negative Piscean is accused are fickleness, gossiping, indiscretion, effeminacy and gullibility. They may not be able to avoid being sickly, but their fretting hypochondria can wear out a saint's patience. They can be intellectually dishonest and also actually fraudulent, deceitful and hypocritical. They are often indecisive in important matters yet will uphold absurdities with the obstinacy of the weak. When they feel themselves rejected, lonely or failures, or simply through feeble self-indulgence, they will find refuge in drugs or the bottle.

    LIKES
  • Solitude to dream in
  • Mystery in all its guises
  • Anything discarded to stay discarded
  • The ridiculas
  • like to get 'lost'
    DISLIKES
  • the obvious
  • being critized
  • feeling all at sea about something
  • know-it-alls
  • pedantry
Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Monday, September 05, 2005

Emotions..

It's over.. No more happy ending for me.. All I have left is this feeling of loneliness.. But this is nothing new.. This sadness.. This pain.. I should be used to it by now.. But it still hurt a lot.. He gave me some happy moments.. But I rather stay in the dark than having a short period of hapiness.. A short period of hope.. He was everything to me.. My life.. My love.. Now.. Everything that I felt.. Everything that I once knew.. Broken.. Shattered.. Crushed.. I don't wanna go through this anymore.. Please.. Don't give me hope if you're going to push me down this dark gloomy cliff again.. All I can do now is cry.. And cry.. And cry.. Life was never fair to me.. Gave me one tiny hope just to see me fall again.. Never fair.. T_T

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Emotions
(Destiny Child)

It's over and done
But the heartache lives on inside
And who's the one you're clinging to
Instead of me tonight?

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You'll never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
Lost in the song
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to hold me tight?
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

I'm there at your side,
I'm part of all the things you are
But you've got a part of someone else
You've got to find your shining star

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You'll never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
Lost in the song
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to hold me tight?
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You'll never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
Lost in the song
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to hold me tight?
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

Saturday, September 03, 2005

Happy Ending.. Not..

Today.. My friend told me something that changed my mood entirely.. Won't be leaking anything here now as what he told me was yet to be confirmed.. It might be true as I felt it myself for quite some time already.. Hope I can settle it as soon as possible.. Hope it is just a misunderstanding.. Whatever it is.. Things are not going to be the same from now onwards.. Sad sad day.. (>.<)

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Happy Ending
(Avril Lavigne)

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

(Chorus)
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

Oh Oh, Oh Oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh Oh,Oh Oh, Oh huh

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do, (All the shit that you do)

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

(Chorus)

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

(Chorus) x 2

Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh Oh,Oh Oh, Ohhhhh Oh Oh,Oh Oh, Ohhhhh