Wednesday, March 22, 2006

My 21st Birthday..

Honestly.. It wasn't as nice as I thought it would be.. There were no pictures.. Not much things to do.. The only one who accompanied me all the way was Robb.. Edi gor came.. But he was so busy with his friends that I somehow felt that his trip here was spent more on other things than with me.. The only thing nice about yesterday was the movie with Robb in Midvalley.. Together with Eyrique and Joshie of course.. We watched "I'm Not Stupid Too".. It was a very touching movie as it revolves around a life of a teenager.. Not to mention those good looking actors too.. Hehe.. Well.. Not that my past few birthdays were very memorable anyway.. Just had my hopes up high since it was my 21st birthday afterall.. And to think some of my so called close friends didn't even send me a sms wishing me happy birthday.. What to do.. Already over.. No use fretting about it anymore.. There's no turning back.. Still.. That feeling still lurks around like an invisible force around me.. Sigh.. This blog is really a sad place to be.. Nothing nice comes out if you see a new post here.. Nothing..
Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Angel Of Music

Angel Of Music
(The Phantom Of The Opera)

PHANTOM'S VOICE: Brava, brava, bravissima . . .

Christine, Christine...
(Phantom: Christine...)

Where in the world
have you been hiding?
Really, you were perfect!

I only wish
I knew your secret!
Who is your great tutor?

Father once spoke of an angel
I used to dream he'd appear
Now as I sing, I can sense him
And I know he's here

Here in this room
he calls me softly
somewhere inside hiding

Somehow I know
he's always with me
he - the unseen genius

Christine, you must have been dreaming, stories like this can't come true

Christine, you're talking in riddles, and it's not like you!

Angel of Music!
Guide and guardian!
Grant to me your glory!

MEG(to herself):
Who is this angel? This...

Angel of Music!
Hide no longer!
Secret and strange angel

He's with me, even now...

Your hands are cold...

All around me...

Your face, Christine, it's white...

It frightens me...

Don't be frightened...

Zach a.k.a. Garfield


Hm.. Just checked my results on the internet.. And guess what? I failed all my subjects! Except for english of course.. Well.. I should have expected this long time ago.. Why frown over it? People ask me to work harder.. Study harder.. Prepare earlier.. Etc.. But do they even know how I felt over it? If only they could be in my shoes.. They would know how confused I am right know.. I don't even know what I'm doing these days..

Besides spending time with my boyfriend.. I'm just wasting my time in KL doing nothing but eat, sleep and go to the cyber cafe to online.. Well.. Now that my results are out.. Should I study as much as I can to resit for those 4 papers in 1 month's time? Or should I just let go and start finding a job.. Or figuring out what the hell my life is all about? (Like that would happen).. I think I can say that I've wasted all my time.. Since after Form5 till now.. Been lost since then.. I don't work.. I don't study.. What the hell am I doing? Nothing.. And what do I do to change that situation of mine? Nothing.. Why is that? I don't know! Then why not do something about it? Try making me.. Even I can't move my own body.. Confused? So am I..

Maybe someone should just hypnotise me and make me a better person.. Might work.. Who knows? =P When will I wake from from this never ending dream of mine! Argh!! Few more days till my birthday.. A 21 year old man.. No longer a boy.. Yet still act like a child.. Ignoring responsibilities.. Ignoring life.. Just enjoying whatever that is given to him at that very moment.. Hm.. Nothing good comes out whenever I start to write.. And times like this makes me feel so out of place from the real world.. Living in fantasy land where everything is perfect and nice.. Can't even think of a person to have breakfast with me.. How lame..

I thought back about that thing that I might like to do in life.. I think I've mentioned it before.. Last year perhaps.. Travel around.. Visiting new places.. How about that for a job? So I went looking around Singapore Airlines website.. Hoping there might be something there for me.. Maybe join the cabin crew? Too bad.. The site's empty.. Even if they were looking for new crews there.. Am I ready to take this chance? I have no idea.. I keeping thinking and thinking and thinking.. But never did anything.. No wonder I feel like this all the time.. All thoughts and no action.. Brain filled with thoughts and nothing done to release the pressure out of it..

Someone told me I am a smart guy.. Am I? If I'm so smart why can't I do more for myself in this pityful life of mine.. =D Food for thought..

Ahh.. Enough.. Don't wanna write anymore for now.. One thing for sure.. I have a very loving boyfriend who supports me in whatever I do.. Hopefully I can be a better person for him.. ^^ Adioz..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Year 2006 For Pisceans

One of the things that matters most to you is keeping your promises. That will go double in early 2006, as a friend will undoubtedly rely on you for something quite important. You've reassured them for months now that they have nothing to worry about, but as soon as the year begins, you'll have a chance to prove that your word truly is your bond.

At the same time -- and straight through mid-March -- you'll also find that several high-ranking, influential coworkers and authority figures will be looking to you to follow through on your word. They may even need a bit more of a commitment from you. Not to worry though. The heavens will be more than happy to help you keep on task, and you'll be rewarded for your honesty, integrity and hard work in a very big way. Sit tight, do everything exactly as you know you should and prepare to experience a wonderful feeling: well-earned, justified pride in yourself.

Obviously, after all that hard work and discipline, you'll be more than ready to have some serious fun -- and the universe has some of that in mind for you too. You'll have all kinds of chances to do some long-distance traveling this year, and if there's any way at all that you can make a reality of one of those trips, don't pass it up. You've probably been itching either to go home for a visit or to return to a place you've always loved. Do it now, and take your favorite travel buddy along. (Just be sure to carry everything you need right on your person, in case of luggage delays or other annoyances.)

If you feel like a relationship is changing -- and not for the worse, so don't worry -- you could well be 100 percent right. Things between you and a certain someone will deepen considerably by the end of the year, if not before. If you don't already have someone in mind, a family member may introduce you to a potential sweetie -- someone they've been telling you is 'just perfect' for you -- around the end of July. You may have to put up with an I-told-you-so after a few weeks, but if things are going along that well, grin and bear it. It will be well worth it when you take a look around you by New Year's and realize that you've got everything you could possibly wish for!

Cupid will reward you for this year of personal discovery and good behavior -- you've been paying all your dues and working hard! In all, your pride in your work will give you a sense of calm assurance that will be extremely appealing to that special someone. The universe will be tossing you opportunities for fun all year long, leaving you laughing and full of quirky stories that will keep anyone intrigued.

If you are single in the midst of swimsuit season, be open to blind dates set up by those you trust, because it's quite likely that one of those awkward moments could turn into a deep and joyful relationship. Sure, you'd have to put yourself on the line -- but with the rest of your life going so swimmingly, it's a small thing to risk! Besides, your success at work and your loving friends will keep you busy and make you even more desirable.

If you are already in a relationship, your radar will start to pick up some interesting changes between the two of you. Don't be afraid, even if you like how things stand. By the end of the year, if you embrace those changes, you could find that a good relationship has ripened into something truly terrific.

Whether you're single or committed or somewhere in between, this year will bring self-confidence and wildly attractive relationship opportunities. You may even get to travel and send lovelorn letters to your sweetie from exotic locales. That is, if you aren't traveling together, which is also a possibility. In that case, you may find that hunting for sunblock and trying out strange new foods gives you both a serious case of lovesickness. And far from home, you'll feel uninhibited about expressing your devotion or enjoying your partner's high praise. So let yourself be rewarded as you deserve.

Zach a.k.a. Garfield