I am practically broke.. Pennyless.. And still in need of money.. Never have I felt so dried up before.. All this while.. Monetary issue.. Is not an issue to me.. I don't spend much.. I hardly go shopping.. Hardly go to the movies.. Hardly ever buy anything.. Except for food.. I like to eat.. I enjoy good food.. Thus most of my money are spent on places like Sushi King, Itallianies and so on.. Even so.. I would still have money in my bank and wallet after eating at such places..
But now it's a different story.. I can't even step a foot in those places without having someone to treat me as I can't afford it myself.. Where did all my money go? Some place which I regret spending.. Some place which practically sucked all my money dry and left me helpless.. And now I even need to rush those who owes me money to pay me back.. Even after they pay me back.. I still don't have enough.. Sigh.. Never felt so helpless before..
Robb was telling me not to think so much about this situation.. Instead.. Act on it.. I know.. It's no use being moody and whiny when things like this happen.. But for a person like me.. I have never worked before! It's not easy taking the 1st step out to work.. Even part-time.. You might say "Aiyah.. Work only.. What's the big deal? Scared of what?" Don't ask me that.. I don't have the answer.. I can never make myself to find a job all this while.. Maybe I'm a coward.. Maybe I'm just a spoilt brat.. But this spoilt brat was never in desperate need of money such as now..
I'm a big baby..
Robb's recent earnings were able to help me out in some way but I don't want to use so much money of his.. It just doesn't feel right.. Especially when it involves one big sum in one shot.. I'm not going to ask my parents as well.. They've spent too much money on me.. What am I to do.. I hate this feeling.. Why can't I just decide on going to work and stick with it.. Zzz.. I can never make a firm decision and stick with it.. Always lost and confused.. Why do I think so much.. =.="
~§hö©kWävê~
But now it's a different story.. I can't even step a foot in those places without having someone to treat me as I can't afford it myself.. Where did all my money go? Some place which I regret spending.. Some place which practically sucked all my money dry and left me helpless.. And now I even need to rush those who owes me money to pay me back.. Even after they pay me back.. I still don't have enough.. Sigh.. Never felt so helpless before..
Robb was telling me not to think so much about this situation.. Instead.. Act on it.. I know.. It's no use being moody and whiny when things like this happen.. But for a person like me.. I have never worked before! It's not easy taking the 1st step out to work.. Even part-time.. You might say "Aiyah.. Work only.. What's the big deal? Scared of what?" Don't ask me that.. I don't have the answer.. I can never make myself to find a job all this while.. Maybe I'm a coward.. Maybe I'm just a spoilt brat.. But this spoilt brat was never in desperate need of money such as now..
Robb's recent earnings were able to help me out in some way but I don't want to use so much money of his.. It just doesn't feel right.. Especially when it involves one big sum in one shot.. I'm not going to ask my parents as well.. They've spent too much money on me.. What am I to do.. I hate this feeling.. Why can't I just decide on going to work and stick with it.. Zzz.. I can never make a firm decision and stick with it.. Always lost and confused.. Why do I think so much.. =.="
~§hö©kWävê~