Friday, June 15, 2007

Hard Times..

No.. Not the "hard" that you are thinking of in the dirty little brain of yours.. But difficult times.. Alot has happened since my previous post..

I went to Genting Highlands with Robb and few of my friends before my 4th semester started.. Came back to KL.. Results came out and few of my friends were required to repeat the subjects they failed and won't be able to proceed to 4th sem.. A misunderstanding between me and one of my close friend.. Changing servers to play in Maple Story... Another close friend of mine broke up his relationship of 4 years which I had looked up to.. And now.. Robb is down with dengue..

Sigh.. Robb was supposed to be discharged today.. But due to the low platelet count in his blood yesterday he had to stay for few more days.. I missed him so much.. Everday I go to the hospital and see him.. I feel so helpless seeing him bored to death as he has nothing to do there but sleep.. There is no TV there for the patience.. He can't read much on magazines or newspapers as it would make him feel dizzy.. He has practically nothing to do.. If I could afford it I would just go and get one PSP for him to play.. At least he won't be so bored..

Talking bout my friend who broke up.. It was him who suggested that and now his bf.. Or should I say ex bf.. Is devastated.. 4 years.. Can you imagine having someone to love for so long and in one blink everything changed? I couldn't imagine having to live without Robb even though we are just together for more than a year.. Maybe my friend felt that his relationship was more to the feeling of responsibility rather than love after having being together for so long.. Would it happen to my relationship as well?

Sometimes I wonder myself.. How could people like us stay with 1 person for so long.. It is typical for someone like us.. Especially when we are below 30.. To be wild and always eyeing at good looking guys.. Thinking of how nice it would be to have them on bed.. Admiring those with superb bodies.. Maybe this is why a lot of people are disgusted at gays.. For practically having mental sex with any good looking guy he sees.. And for changing boyfriends every few weeks.. Just like shopping..

So how does one keep the flame from burning out? I myself can't answer that alone as in my relationship.. Both of us are trying our best to love each other more each day.. It takes two to survive in a relationship.. Cuz if it was only one sided.. The boat would be unbalanced and it would sink.. Sigh..

Well.. I better be off for breakfast.. Wouldn't want to fall sick now especially when he needs me the most.. I miss you dear.. Get well soon..



William said...

I'm sure Robb will be fine and your visits do make him less bored. No skankying with the patient before the platelet levels rise!

pikey said...

hhhmm.... 4 yrs is definitely a long time and it's sad it ended that way... sometimes over the years some people priority changes or both of them not suitable to be together anymore.. wadever reasons, they know best...

In a relationship, it takes 2 people to make it to go along, and if both are committed and have the feel, it shouldn't be any problem. It'll be good for the couple to have a common goal... and as Robb said in his previous post, communication plays a vital role too.

No worries, Robb will be fine and before you know it, he'll be by your side again :)

savante said...

Poor Robb. Dengue kah?

Zach said...

Hm.. Doctor still not sure what's wrong.. Say not dengue.. =.="

pluboy @ takashi said...

zach r u clean? hehe.. just to make sure.. remember to go take hiv test at least once..

and oh.. er.. i too broke off after 4 years with my ex.. 2nd one.. and i would say one of the reasons always falls back to responsibility and pity rather than love.. the flame just die off when you take one another too much for granted..

sure, the boyfriend will be there for you, but that is just so much about it because being THE boyfriend, he is limited to just so much.. basically because of personal issues, i rather i myself take it on my own than to have him pull under the water whereby there will be no escape..

too deep? nevermind..

Zach said...

No it's not too deep.. And YES.. I AM CLEAN!!

Unless you decide to come to our tiny room and do something with us.. Keke..