I Miss You So..

It has been years since I've last met you. You don't know how much I've been dreaming of meeting you ever since the last time we were together in Penang. I remembered the first time when I met you in the shopping complex, it was love at first sight. You might not be as presentable as everyone else nor as famous as they are, but to me, you're the most handsome one of all. Every single part of you spelled "yummy" in my head. I couldn't resist myself from drooling every time I see you.

Then one day I brought you home with me. I couldn't stop myself from stripping you bare naked and tasting you inside me. It was heaven! Never have I been so satisfied and it was pleasuring in every single way. After that day I just needed more and more of you. You were like a drug to me, and I was a very serious drug addict and I just can't live a day without you.

Having you with me just spices up my life. Nothing has ever made me feel so. But after awhile, you seemed to disappear and I could not find you anywhere. You left me without even saying goodbye. I was devastated. I was lost. How could you just leave without a trace? I went all over to look for you but you just seemed to vanish into thin air. It was a very hard time for me as I was so into you. There is nothing that could replace you no matter how hard I tried.

After being apart for so many years, I started to live happily. Time made me forget about you. You become nothing but a fragment of my life as I knew I would never see you again. But life is just full of surprises. As I was on the way home after work today, I stopped by at Jusco Wangsa Maju to get some snacks for my beloved Zuzu. Guess what? I saw you again. At first I didn't believe that it was you that I saw. I went closer and I recognized you even when you've changed your outlook a little. You were still the same, as irresistible as ever.

I wanted to turn around and walk away, but the demon inside me stopped me from doing so. I have longed to see you after so many years, and finally you appeared before me. Even though I have moved on, part of me still lusts for you, wanting you inside me, feeling the same satisfying sensation as I felt few years back. My inner desires overcame my logic to just walk away and I ended up confronting you.

In the end, I brought you home, just like how I did back in Penang. No one else knows about this yet, and they would definitely disapprove of me doing so as it would just add salt to my wound. But I don't care, it was a chance of a lifetime for me and if I let you go again, I wouldn't know whether you would disappear again like before. I had to have you. I want you. I needed you. Please do not leave me again. Please stay.






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Money Money Money..

It has been quite some time since I've updated my blog and this was actually written in a notebook when I was working this morning. It has been quite a tough month for me as I was low on cash. Even though I had my first salary at the end of April, it was just enough to cover my fixed expenses and left me with little to spare. Not to mention Robb's birthday is coming soon. Sigh.

I can't blame anyone but myself for being idle for so long, surviving on nothing but my own savings. I was quite dry when I started to work as I had depleted most of my savings. Even so, I needed to spend on some necessary things before I started work. This job of mine requires me to wear a white shirt everyday. Sadly, I only had one white shirt, and it was quite old. It wasn't even bought by myself as some guy gave it to me after I helped him out few years back. I tried to look for a cheap one but ended up buying two from Seed as the ones in Jusco were either too bad in quality or too big for me. I managed to get a black slacks and a belt in Jusco which was quite cheap though.

The food around my work place ain't cheap either. One meal alone would cost nearly RM 10.00 and for someone who has a big appetite like me it is always not filling. I had to bring my own bread most of the time as I was really low on cash that time. Around two weeks after I started working, the sole of my shoes came off when I was on night shift. Had to spend again to get it mended.

When I was about to get my pay, there was a one day warehouse sales by L'oreal and Justin was working part-time there. They were selling Armani Diamonds for Men at only RM 150.00 for a 75ml bottle and the deodorant at only RM 30.00. As I kinda like the smell and it was very cheap considering the normal price for a 75ml bottle is at RM 240.00, I asked Justin to buy it for me. There goes a part of my salary.

Right after I get my paycheck, I sort of did a budget for the month of May. After deducting my rental, water and electric bill, phone bill, internet as well as estimated transportation costs, I was left with around RM 300.00 to survive the month. To make things worse, my upper left wisdom tooth went rebellious and gave me a hard time during work. I had no choice but to go see a dentist to have it exracted and sent to obedience camp. Due to this, I missed out on a day of triple pay at work as the dentist was fully booked for the week.

A sudden thought came to my mind on how I might be able to make my financial situation a little better. I remembered that TAR College students can claim back the RM 100.00 caution money that we paid when we enrolled into the college. So I went to the college yesterday to enquire about it as it was my off day. From my previous experiences with the School of Social Science and Humanities(SSH) office, I knew that their management was very bad as our school was always the last to receive our results, bills, timetables or anything that has to go through them. But what I found out yesterday was even worst! They told me that it would take one year for them to process the caution money. WTF? If they told me that they needed like two months or something then it is acceptable but one year? Why the fuck would they need that long? Zzz.

On another note from work, there was this couple who came by the counter few days back, asking us to waive her parking ticket as she is a resident here. The problem is, all residents here have their own car transponder for them to enter the parking lots without having to take the parking ticket, which she had forgotten to bring. Once the ticket is issued, they are bound to pay it and we have no say in this as it is under the developers jurisdiction and not us from the management. Her ticket was just RM 3.00 anyway but still she keeps on repeating that she's a resident and shouldn't be paying for it. Come on, you're staying in a service residence that costs around RM 1,200.00 per square foot and you make a fuss over a parking ticket that costs less than RM 10.00? How cheap can you be?

I really don't understand these people. Are all rich people so stingy? I wouldn't know. I'm neither rich nor do I have any rich friends. Don't think I would get rich next time either. Guess I'll never know.

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