Forehead With The Letter "L"..

After spending half my day playing the computer, less than an hour doing part of my assignment, and the whole night out in Bukit Bintang watching Harry Potter.. I came back with a blue mood.. I have no idea what triggered this sudden change of feeling but its been a long time since I've felt this way..

I feel so lost.. Again.. No idea what I am doing with my life.. No aims.. No goals.. Just wasting my time chatting online and playing online games.. I have assignments to settle.. Tutorials to finish.. But never really did them.. Tried to do my assignment but my so called effort usually ends in less than an hour.. I just can't make myself to finish all those work that I'm supposed to do.. Laziness got over me.. Maybe I just have no interest in it.. I dunno.. Don't even know what I want.. Such a loser..

Looking at people pursuing their goals.. Walking down the path that they wanted.. Fighting for their future.. Makes me feel helpless.. I'm just wasting my parents money by paying for my college bills in a course that I don't seem to be doing much.. I should just draw a letter "L" on my forehead.. Or maybe it's already there.. What's wrong with me? I wasn't like this before.. Being this lazy isn't who I was! Matt asked me to explore myself.. Get to know myself.. What I like.. What I'm good at.. But there's nothing but an empty space.. A dark entity.. Vacuum.. Sigh..

I can never decide.. This attitude of mine will ruin me soon.. Maybe it already has.. I don't know what I really want.. I don't know what I really like.. Hm.. What will happen to me in the future..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Plan Exposed..

Hi.. I'm back~!! Been awhile since I was able to sit in my own room and write my blog.. Didn't get to online till now.. What a relief.. =P Now that I'm back online.. Hopefully I can continue writting constantly instead of leaving huge spaces between my posts..

Remember about me mentioning something about some sort of a plan before Hari Raya? Well.. I went all the way to Ipoh to give Yaoi a suprise and also visit Ben for Hari Raya.. But someone spilled out to him that I was going! Not much of a suprise then.. But still he was very happy to know about it.. Bleh..

Went back to KL after that.. Yaoi came along.. Spent some time together.. Then he went back few days later.. Life goes on as usuall.. Getting along fine with my new roomates and housemates too.. Although most of them don't speak much.. Maybe if I stayed here longer then that would be different.. =D

Oh! Almost forgot.. I went to LQ at last! Was kinda fun.. Cold too.. Kekeke.. My 1st time there and they had a shower party! Water all over the place.. Dancing along with the music and water spraying all over us.. It was cool.. Matt kor took us back after that.. Felt sorry for his car.. Hopefully our wet butts didn't spoil his leather seats.. Hehehe..

Hm.. Not much of an update I would say.. Low on details now as there were too much to write.. Can't remember some of them anyway.. Never mind.. Just a short blog to fill you guys in on some of the happenings for the past few weeks.. ^^ Anyways.. Will be writting more soon.. Hopefully.. Till then.. Chaoz..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield