Nervous..

Tomorrow, my fellow classmates will be graduating happily with their certs in their hands. Not that I don't feel the same for them, but maybe a little jealous that I had to stay back another year just because of one silly paper. Blame no one but my own incompetence.

But this is not why I am feeling nervous now. My heart's beating faster than normal, my body's feeling hot with sweat, and my mind's spinning round and round. There will be a walk-in interview for Air Asia's air steward tomorrow in Shangri-La Hotel, and surprisingly I decided to go.

I was already expecting to go alone, trying to face my fears of getting uncertain questions that I might not have the answers for. It was then when a friend of mine called. We talked for awhile and I mentioned about the interview to him. He got all excited as he did thought of being an air steward as well.

He then said that he would accompany me there as he was interested as well and that got me all hyped up. I would definitely feel better having a friend by my side, no matter what the results are, rather than going alone without knowing anyone there. I really did look forward to it and felt a little bit more confident.

That was till he sent me a message later on saying that he couldn't make it after all. I really felt as if I was being lifted up and then pushed down again. It was not entirely his fault as he did mentioned he had some plans later on. But I really hoped to go with him as I don't want to feel so alone, facing something that I've been avoiding for so long.

Now I'm wide awake, feeling nervous for nothing and making myself feel worse by not being able to sleep. The interview will be starting around 9.00am until 3.00pm and it would be preferable if I went there as early as I can. Having other plans as well after the interview, I wouldn't want to be lacking of rest and feeling tired for the entire day.

Still, the ball-less me is now wide awake, blogging away as if the night is still young. I wonder what time will I start to doze off. Hopefully I'm able to wake up energetically and able to perform well in the interview, whatever it is that they wanted to test me on.

Low self esteem,
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Urgh.. The Smell!!

Nuuuuuuu~! It's durian season again. T_T How can anyone love such a stinky fruit? Everywhere I go, I see and SMELL durians! Sigh. To think that my housemate is gonna bring back durians tonight. Got to think of somewhere to go while they finish up those hell spawned fruits. Anyone knows how to get rid of the smell fast? I don't wanna come home and faint right after I open the door. T_T


Perhaps I should stick this at home. They should make more of this and put it all around so that public places won't be so full of durian smells, especially during durian season. =\ Someone help me!!

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Busy Weekend..

It was a very tiring weekend for me. Can't remember what I did on Friday, but on Saturday, it was kinda full day for me. Robb dragged me to Fitness First as he needed someone to take pictures of him. I didn't want to go at first but he said he would ask other guys to do it if I'm not helping him out. Darn. I can't have other hot guys getting intimate with him can I? So eventually I ended up in the gym, taking some pics and doing some workout myself. Can't do much as my body still hurt from the previous session in the new gym nearby my place.

Went to meet up with Cheesie and Tock in Pavilion for some picture sessions as well. I didn't had much to talk to them as I'm usually shy towards people that I hardly know. I didn't know what to talk about as well as I'm not a very good conversationalist like Robb. So I just "lepak" around with them for the whole afternoon with nothing much to do. We went our separate ways after that,while me and Robb decided to have dinner in Carl's Junior. Went home after that to rest awhile before we went clubbing later on.

It has been a year or more since the last time we went clubbing. The previous time we went clubbing was in LaQueen, or so called LaLa Queen by some. My straight housemate went along with us and there were few guys who were interested with him. Hehe. This time, me and Robb went clubbing in Market Place with Benny, a guy who I've been recently hanging out with. He brought two pretty girls along as well. Market Place is a new hangout point for PLUs and I heard it was better than LaQueen. I have to agree that the crowd and songs are better but the place was kinda small. I still love Liquid the most, too bad it closed down.

Went out again today for some photo sessions for Robb somewhere in PJ. Kinda lazy to talk about it now. Came back to Jusco for dinner and did some shopping for groceries. It has been awhile since I've cooked something decent for Robb. Gonna try cooking again. ^^ As soon as we reached home, our beloved Zuzu started to wag his tail and jump around to greet us as he usually does. He must be missing us alot as we've been out alot this weekend. Such a lovely son. ^^

I've been thinking, how do you actually define a friend, especially a good friend? Is it possible for gays to have close gay friends or guys/girls to have close girl/guy friends even when they are attached? No idea why, maybe I'm too deprived of having someone else close to me besides Robb. Should I even be feeling this? I just miss having a friend whom I can talk to or hang out with anytime, anywhere. Used to have those kinda friends. Used to..

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Obsessed With Zuzu..

Ain't he adorable~! My baby's still as cute as he was when he was just 2 weeks old. ^^ Being the greedy doggy, he's been gaining a little weight from all the goodies that he gets. He'll follow anyone with food, even strangers~! Everyone that came to my house before loved him as he was very friendly.


Whenever we go out, Zuzu will run to the door and look at us with his adorable eyes, begging us to bring him along. It's just so hard to resist loving him. Sometimes during dinner, we would bring him out with us and put him on the chair when we eat. Zuzu will be looking all around excitedly. I guess he must be bored being at home all the time.


When our food arrives, he'll be standing up, holding on to the table and looking at us with his adorable puppy eyes again. We try not to feed him too much as we don't want him to be overweight. Hehe. We even bring Zuzu to the OldTown White Coffee once awhile, right opposite our home. Lucky doggy huh?


He hasn't been a naughty boy these few weeks. Usually he would pee or poo in places other than his "toilet" once awhile. But he has been a good boy lately and doing all his business at the right places. The only naughty things he does lately is that he loves to bite! Especially me since I don't hit him. Guess he's just playful. :P


Having Zuzu around was the next best thing after having Robb in my life. Thank you dear~ Love you and Zuzu lots~

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PD Pictures..

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Jobless..

Yes, I'm currently jobless. But I'm not doing anything about it except for rotting at home. Don't ask me to look for a job, as you can never move me. I'm as stubborn as a bull. Being so comfortable with what I'm having now, my life's frozen in this circle that I've created myself. Nothing will move unless I myself take the first step out of this comfort zone of mine. Sigh.

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