Helpless..

I am practically broke.. Pennyless.. And still in need of money.. Never have I felt so dried up before.. All this while.. Monetary issue.. Is not an issue to me.. I don't spend much.. I hardly go shopping.. Hardly go to the movies.. Hardly ever buy anything.. Except for food.. I like to eat.. I enjoy good food.. Thus most of my money are spent on places like Sushi King, Itallianies and so on.. Even so.. I would still have money in my bank and wallet after eating at such places..

But now it's a different story.. I can't even step a foot in those places without having someone to treat me as I can't afford it myself.. Where did all my money go? Some place which I regret spending.. Some place which practically sucked all my money dry and left me helpless.. And now I even need to rush those who owes me money to pay me back.. Even after they pay me back.. I still don't have enough.. Sigh.. Never felt so helpless before..

Robb was telling me not to think so much about this situation.. Instead.. Act on it.. I know.. It's no use being moody and whiny when things like this happen.. But for a person like me.. I have never worked before! It's not easy taking the 1st step out to work.. Even part-time.. You might say "Aiyah.. Work only.. What's the big deal? Scared of what?" Don't ask me that.. I don't have the answer.. I can never make myself to find a job all this while.. Maybe I'm a coward.. Maybe I'm just a spoilt brat.. But this spoilt brat was never in desperate need of money such as now..


I'm a big baby..
Robb's recent earnings were able to help me out in some way but I don't want to use so much money of his.. It just doesn't feel right.. Especially when it involves one big sum in one shot.. I'm not going to ask my parents as well.. They've spent too much money on me.. What am I to do.. I hate this feeling.. Why can't I just decide on going to work and stick with it.. Zzz.. I can never make a firm decision and stick with it.. Always lost and confused.. Why do I think so much.. =.="

~§hö©kWävê~

What Will Be.. Will Be..

When I was just a little boy..
I asked my mother..
What will I be..
Will I be handsome..
Will I be rich..
That's what she said to me..
Hey Ming Ming..
Ming Ming..
Whatever will be..
Will be..
The future's not ours to see..
Hey Ming Ming..
Ming Ming..
What will be..
Will be..
~§hö©kWävê~

Hard Times..

No.. Not the "hard" that you are thinking of in the dirty little brain of yours.. But difficult times.. Alot has happened since my previous post..

I went to Genting Highlands with Robb and few of my friends before my 4th semester started.. Came back to KL.. Results came out and few of my friends were required to repeat the subjects they failed and won't be able to proceed to 4th sem.. A misunderstanding between me and one of my close friend.. Changing servers to play in Maple Story... Another close friend of mine broke up his relationship of 4 years which I had looked up to.. And now.. Robb is down with dengue..

Sigh.. Robb was supposed to be discharged today.. But due to the low platelet count in his blood yesterday he had to stay for few more days.. I missed him so much.. Everday I go to the hospital and see him.. I feel so helpless seeing him bored to death as he has nothing to do there but sleep.. There is no TV there for the patience.. He can't read much on magazines or newspapers as it would make him feel dizzy.. He has practically nothing to do.. If I could afford it I would just go and get one PSP for him to play.. At least he won't be so bored..

Talking bout my friend who broke up.. It was him who suggested that and now his bf.. Or should I say ex bf.. Is devastated.. 4 years.. Can you imagine having someone to love for so long and in one blink everything changed? I couldn't imagine having to live without Robb even though we are just together for more than a year.. Maybe my friend felt that his relationship was more to the feeling of responsibility rather than love after having being together for so long.. Would it happen to my relationship as well?

Sometimes I wonder myself.. How could people like us stay with 1 person for so long.. It is typical for someone like us.. Especially when we are below 30.. To be wild and always eyeing at good looking guys.. Thinking of how nice it would be to have them on bed.. Admiring those with superb bodies.. Maybe this is why a lot of people are disgusted at gays.. For practically having mental sex with any good looking guy he sees.. And for changing boyfriends every few weeks.. Just like shopping..

So how does one keep the flame from burning out? I myself can't answer that alone as in my relationship.. Both of us are trying our best to love each other more each day.. It takes two to survive in a relationship.. Cuz if it was only one sided.. The boat would be unbalanced and it would sink.. Sigh..

Well.. I better be off for breakfast.. Wouldn't want to fall sick now especially when he needs me the most.. I miss you dear.. Get well soon..

~§hö©kWävê~

Langkawi..

I'm home~!! Just came back from my 4 days trip to Langkawi.. It was quite a last minute plan when my friend Kenny suddenly asked me to visit him since I was on holiday.. So the indecisive me took few days to decide and finally agreed just one day before I head out to Langkawi.. :P So I packed my stuff and went to the Jetty on the following day..



Lucky the tickets were still available.. It was quite expensive though.. RM50.00 for a one way ticket and RM95.00 for a two way ticket.. My father then bought me the two way ticket and the date of return was left opened as I was not sure when I would be back.. I then parted ways with my father and head towards the boat.. It was just 8.00 in the morning.. Zzz..




The boat was neither big nor small.. It was not fully crowded as there were plenty of seats available.. Most of the passengers were tourists.. Only few of them were locals such as myself.. As I waited for the boat to sail.. I managed to take a picture of the sun rising up.. It was quite a sight.. Would be better if I had my sunglasses with me.. Hehe..




It had been quite some time since I've been on a ship so I was feeling a little sick from the waves outside.. Or maybe it was just because I didn't had any breakfast and was reading The Sword of Shannary Trilogy which I brought along.. Well.. The journey was not that bad.. Felt better after awhile.. Bored though.. Took some pics of clouds along the way.. No idea why but I seem to be facinated by them these days..



I reached my destination 3 hours later.. Sent a brief SMS to my mum to inform her that I've arrived.. Called up my friend Kenny who stays in Langkawi as well.. I had to wait until he finishes school before he can come over and fetch me.. That would be another 3 hours.. My tummy called out to me.. "Feed me!! Feed me!!" it said.. LoL.. I then followed the map which I got for free at the jetty and took a slow walk towards Langkawi Fair which is said to be Langkawi's largest mall.. I was like =.=" when I saw the building.. Took some pics along the way as well..




Had my breakfast in Langkawi Fair's McDonalds.. Seems like the price here differs from the McD's in other places.. Still cheaper than the ones in Genting Highlands though.. Hehe.. Had lots of time to spare before Kenny meets up with me so I took a walk around the mall.. Boring place.. =.= I headed out to the streets and took a walk to a nearby park.. Kenny arrived around 2.00pm.. That was the 1st time that I met him.. :)



Despite having to go to school everyday (he's just 16 year old) and helping out in his father's shop.. He willingly spent his remaining time showing me around the island.. It is an island full of beautiful sceneries.. A perfect place to relax and get away from the hectic life of KL.. The beaches clean.. The mountains tall and green with trees.. It has been awhile since I've enjoyed nature that much.. Especially the sound of the waves.. I won't write much about the places I've been though.. As I felt this trip of mine is more to visiting Kenny than to visiting the island..




Through the 4 days in Langkawi.. I've lived part of Kenny's life.. When he's out to school.. I would most probably be sleeping.. And after he comes back.. We would either go to his shop and help out if needed.. Or he would bring me out to beaches, waterfalls and also to look for his friends.. Sometimes I felt like I was disturbing his daily routine but he assured me that he enjoyed my company.. And I enjoyed his as well.. He's a nice friend..




I've got to know and understand him more as we chat quite alot.. He told me alot about himself as well.. Putting faith and trust in me like he would with his closest friend.. For that I am honoured.. Somehow he felt like a younger brother to me.. Well.. Enough about him.. Lets all wish him good luck for his coming exams.. ^^



Somehow I felt like I've strayed from my title.. Haha.. Doesn't matter.. It had been an enjoyable trip there.. The company.. The sceneries.. The lifestyle.. I wouldn't mind going there again to stay with him.. Hehe.. Hope he won't mind though.. XD Hard to find such a friend these days.. Especially in college where everyone wears a mask and strive to survive on his or her own.. Sigh..




There were more pics than those that I have posted above.. But I guess it's more than enough having so many pictures flooding my blog.. Would just keep it in my laptop and enjoy it myself.. Keke.. Anyway.. That's all for now.. Hope you guys like the pictures.. Oh one more thing.. I miss you dear.. ^^

~§hö©kWävê~

I'm Home~!!!

I'm finally home.. Mum's cooking.. Curry mee.. Laksa.. Char koay teow.. Ahhh~!! So many things to eat.. Feels like heaven.. I love Penang~!!

~§hö©kWävê~

Black Eyes Zach..

Nice eyes? My eyes are going to be like that sooner of later if I continue staying up till early in the morning.. No idea why I can't sleep.. Felt tired.. But just not able to drift into my dreamland.. Sigh..

~§hö©kWävê~

Dream World..

"Pisceans tend to withdraw into a dream world.."

A dream world is a place where all our thoughts on how life should be come to life.. We tend to mould a perfect place in our dream world where everything happens according to our idealistic thoughts.. But when we dream too much.. As such for a piscean.. We mix up our dreams with reality.. And when that happens.. We mix up our expectations as well.. Expectations that would seldom be achieved in reality.. When things don't go the way we expect them to be.. Our mood starts to crumble.. As such.. I'm not in a very good mood now..

"Their natures tend to be too otherworldly for the practical purposes of living in this world as it is. They exist emotionally rather than rationally, instinctively more than intellectually."

Few weeks back I wrote a post about friends.. Through that post.. It might make someone feel as if I'm someone realistic.. Someone who don't depend on their friends that much.. Someone who treats their friends just like anyone else.. But deep inside.. I'm someone who is never rational.. Someone who is weak.. Someone who depends on his friends.. Someone whose mood is always affected by the people around him.. Someone who needs recognition from his so-called group of friends.. Someone who wants to feel that he belongs to the group..

"Their faults are exasperating rather than vicious. They can be oversubtle, oversensitive and overemotional."

During the start of my 1st semester in my new course of education.. I was quite happy as I felt as if I belong to the group of people that I mix with in my class.. But as time passes by.. The feeling of being isolated starts flowing in.. Some might say I'm too sensitive but from the looks of it.. What I felt is true.. I can't judge whether it was me or them who changed as I would be influenced by my own feelings.. So I asked one of my friend as he felt the changes too.. I asked him whether it was me drifting away from the group or was the group drifting away from me.. He didn't know as well and told me not to think so much.. What else could I do then..

Life is mean.. You do so much to adapt to the majority.. You speak Mandarin to them.. You help them out in assignments.. You do them favors.. You kept them well informed of the happenings in college.. And what do you get in return? What do I get in return? Nothing.. No acknowledgement from anyone.. To get them to speak in English with me is hard enough.. Asking them to practise Japanese with me is like asking them to swim to Australia.. To make things worse.. We have another Japanese paper coming soon in our 5th semester.. And now I can't even remember the basics that we learnt.. Why? I have no one to practise with..

They didn't even plan something for me for my birthday.. When I invited them to go for dinner at Pizza Hut with me paying half the amount.. They even declined my invitation when they have nothing to do at home.. It might not seem important for most people but for me.. It was a very important day.. Even Robb's classmate came.. My group of friends? Lost.. Maybe I wasn't in their group in the first place.. Maybe they find me out of their frequency.. I just don't belong anywhere..

Even Justin seem to be closer to them these days.. I consider him and Yi Kang to be 2 of my closest friend in college.. But for Justin to be staying under the same roof with me.. I got too used to his company.. It might be due to this that I'm feeling a little jealous as he has been mixing around with them more than me these few weeks.. I have no right to say who is he to mix with and not to mix with.. But still I'm jealous of him.. Jealous that he has so many people to chat and laugh along with..

"When they feel themselves rejected, lonely or failures, or simply through feeble self-indulgence, they will find refuge in drugs or the bottle."

Exams are just around the corner and I still haven't started reading anything.. I guess I should just drop all these nonsense and concentrate on my studies.. But as you know.. All is easier said than done.. Now I just feel like walking down to the nearest 7-11 and buy few bottles of alcohol to drink while listening to Linkin Park's songs.. Drugs are definitely a no-no.. Maybe I should just finish up the remaining Jack Daniel's on top of my fridge and go to sleep.. That should do.. Sigh.. Goodnight..

~§hö©kWävê~

Sense Of Belonging..

Somewhere I Belong
(Linkin Park)

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Repeat Chorus]

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today

[Repeat Chorus]

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

Lazy to write out what I've been feeling these few days.. So.. This song explains it best.. Goodnight..

~§hö©kWävê~

Random Shots..

Just some shots that I took with my handphone.. Feel like sharing it with you guys since I myself loved those pictures.. XD Hope you all like it..

~§hö©kWävê~

The Good Old Days..

I have been looking through some old pictures of mine during my college years in Penang.. It has been quite some time since I felt so out of touch with my own history.. Everyone in the pictures are now so far apart from me.. Far in distance as well as the heart.. I hardly keep in touch with any of them now.. But it seems that it's not only me who is drifting away.. I guess it just happens to everyone at one point of our lives.. Made me realise that it is of no use to ponder on the past when time is always moving forward.. Even so.. As a human being we're always having problems of letting go those memories that are best forgotten.. Some of us will use it to our best advantage.. Learning from the experience that had been brought upon us.. Meanwhile.. Others tend to dwell on those memories.. Letting it control them instead of making good use of it..

Which one do I belong to then? I find myself hanging in the middle as usuall.. Never really sure of where I belong.. I have always been drifting from one place to another.. Never really left any markings on people's heart.. Never really belonged to a group of friends.. Never really achieved any goals as there were none to start with.. You can say I always go with the flow.. Some people might say it is a good thing to be able to adapt to different surroundings as I was never really rooted to one place.. But it is the sense of belongness that actually makes a person feel alive.. Feel appreciated.. Feel wanted.. Isn't it?

It has been awhile since I've managed to blurt out such thoughts of mine.. Looking through my 1st few posts when I started this blog made me realize the changes in me.. It seems that I can no longer write like I used to.. Or use words that I could hardly think of now.. What happened to my vocab? Is it the lack of writing and reading that made me this way? Or is it the company that I hang out with for the last 2 years.. I'm not sure.. All I know is that my level of vocab and the way I speak or write are no longer as good as it used to be.. Not that I'm very good at it to start with but still.. It has deteriorated..

The only good thing that has happened to me was having Robb as my companion.. The rest.. Well.. I've gained weight.. I've become much lazier than I used to be.. I've had some hair problems.. Secret.. XD Not consistant in any language although I can speak English, Mandarin, Cantonese, Malay, Hokkien and a little of Japanese.. Ah.. Can't think of any more now but rest assured there are lots more flaws in me.. One could say that I should do something about it instead of complaining.. Well.. Were you even reading? Have you ever seen any lazy assholes move their feet or shall I say butt to get something? I don't think so.. Maybe once in a blue moon.. It is like some sort of a virus in me.. Nothing can be done unless my brain installs some anti-virus software and get rid of it.. Till then.. We shall see..

As I have said.. Robb is the best thing that has ever happened to me in my life.. Having him gone for 3 days is bad enough.. Having my housemates (the only people I mix with nowadays) gone as well is terrible! The monster that resides beneath the darkness inside me slowly awakens.. Everyone has that monster in them.. It is called "Loneliness".. It kept me awake till 4.00 or 5.00a.m. last night and made me feel kinda moody.. Will have to wait till tomorrow when Robb comes home and brightens up my life again.. And now.. Back to my songs.. Chaoz..

~§hö©kWävê~

Lonely..

I miss hugging you while you are sitting on that chair doing your work..


I miss your hugs when we are watching tv on that couch..


I miss cooking dinner for you..


I miss sleeping beside you and feeling the warmth of your body..


I miss you terribly..

~§hö©kWävê~

Home Cooked Food..

I have been cooking dinner occasionally ever since I moved to this place that I'm staying now.. I like the feeling of being able to cook for people that I care for.. XD Though I am not able to make a variety of dishes.. I can still cook up some simple dishes to satisfy my housemate's hunger.. Hopefully I can learn up more recipies instead of cooking the same thing over and over again.. XD Enjoy~!!








~§hö©kWävê~

Friends..

One of the best sitcoms.. Agree?

No.. This post is not gonna be about the series Friends.. It will be about how I feel about friends.. The word "friend" might mean alot to others.. It might also mean alot to me before.. But not now.. After going through so many events.. I might have to agree with Robb.. That friends are nothing but people who use each other to achieve a certain objective.. If you are considered a friend to someone.. It means that you have value of usage to that someone..

A lot of people might disagree.. They would say "Come on.. It can't be that bad.. There are some people who treat their friends with a sincere heart.." Maybe.. But 9 out of 10 of our so called "friends" are using us to satisfy their own needs.. And so are we..

Think about it.. We only think of our friends when we need something from them.. Like when we are bored and need someone to hang out with.. Or when we need someone to share our sadness or happiness.. Who do we look for? Our friends.. When we have no desire for anything.. Do we look for our friends and just stare at the empty wall? I don't think so..

So when our friends do not look for us it just means that we have no value to them at that moment.. And when they do look for us.. It means that we have something that they want from us.. It does sound a little too cruel to define friends as such people but if you think clearly.. It is true.. And why do I write about it? To remind myself and others who are reading this blog of mine not to place too much affection or hope on your "friends" as it will only hurt you.. To remind myself not to hang out with people who has no value to me and waste my time with them who do not appreciate what they can gain from me.. They might want something from me in the near future but it is up to me whether or not I would agree to this "transaction"..

There is a reason why I feel this way all of a sudden but I won't be writing about it.. I will only say that it had something to do with my birthday.. I had found out who still needs my help in the near future.. And who has absolutely no value to me.. Through this I shall filter my list of "friends" and help out whoever that has value to me and ignore those that has no value to me.. :)



So people.. Wake up!!

~§hö©kWävê~

My Only Birthday Present..

~§hö©kWävê~

Inferno..

Just had a wonderful party last night at Jkeeku's house.. It was his 21st birthday~!! (Well not exactly as his real birthday is on the 29th March 2007) Will talk more bout it as soon as I'm at home..

Now I'm stuck at SS15's Inferno waiting for a friend of mine while Robb is at a nearby shop playing Magic The Gathering.. Hopefully he can win the tournament as the 1st prize winner gets an amount of money which I will not disclose here.. Why? Cuz if everyone knows how much he is getting and if he wins.. You guys might ask him for a treat!! Bleh.. Not letting you exploit him.. Kekeke..

The guy I'm meeting later is kinda good looking.. Haven't met him before though.. Just evaluate from his pictures.. One thing I like is that he speaks English as well~!! Well.. I guess I'm off to play Maple Story again while waiting for him.. Kinda empty in this cyber cafe.. Or maybe it's too early.. XD Anyway.. Chaozz..

~§hö©kWävê~

Rainy Day..

Rain drops are falling on my head..

Been raining on and off these few days.. Especially during the evening.. Love the cold weather.. ^^

I woke up around 7.00a.m. today with the "Ohayo~!!" alarm from my handphone.. The alarm never failed to wake me up so far.. Unless I had less than 2 hours of sleep.. XD So I got up and slowly walked to the bathroom and had a nice warm bath.. After finished getting ready for class.. I went in Justin's room as usuall.. Woke him up and waited for everyone else to get ready.. Lazy bums.. Well.. This is my everyday college routine.. XD

Rushed down to the bus stop as we were a little late.. Tried to stop the taxi but they were all taken by others.. Luckily the bus came not long after.. Reached the lecture hall around 9.15a.m.~!! We thought the lecturer would have started the class already but to our surprise.. She wasn't even there~!! So the whole lot of us waited for another 15 minutes or so.. Our course rep then told us that the lecture and the tutorial classes later were all cancelled~!! Zzz..

If she were to tell us a day before then everyone would be glad.. Imagine waking up so early in the morning just to go to the lecture hall and find it cancelled.. So pissed~!! I could have slept till after lunch.. Sigh.. It even started to drizzle when we were walking to the bus stop from college..

Not a very productive day.. XD Spent my whole afternoon at the cyber cafe playing Maple Story.. Did the party quest with 3 other players from Singapore.. Was fun though.. ^^ The rain came and went as usuall.. Even drizzled when we were having dinner outside.. Well.. At least the weather is cold.. And nice to sleep.. Hehe..

Hopefully the lecturer won't cancel tomorrow's class again like how she did today.. Would be good to be informed earlier.. XD

~§hö©kWävê~

22 Years YOUNG~!!!

One of my favourite cheese cakes~!!

As of today.. 20th March 2007.. I'm officially OLD~!! Haih.. No longer can I twist and turn my age to become young.. When I was 21 I could just turn those numbers around and make myself 12~!! Kekeke.. Well.. I have to accept it since I'm already considered the eldest in my class..

There won't be any pictures of me this time though.. As I've gained some weight and I look horrible in pictures.. Not a single pic that I took looks good.. No matter which angle I try.. Looks like its not only age that I've gained during these few months of absence.. Haha.. Hopefully I can somehow motivate myself to exercise more often..


To make things clear.. No~!! Those white sticky stuff around my Z are not cum stains.. XD

Had a wonderful morning and afternoon today.. Skipped classes for the 1st time this semester.. Guess what I did? Slept all the way~!! Haha.. It rained in the morning and made me so drowsy throughout the day.. I wonder if I could sleep at all tonight.. Woke up around 6.00p.m. and got a quick shower as I've had plans with Robb and my friends for dinner in Pizza Hut~!! Been quite some time since I've been there.. When I was back in Penang.. I used to go there almost once every week with my family.. Love those chicken wings~!!


My one and only..

Although it was only a small sort of party.. But I'm quite happy as those who came were people that I cared for.. It was more than enough.. Don't have to entertain so many "not important" people.. XD Well I never said I'm good with crowds~!! Back to the point.. Robb.. My loved one.. My hubby.. My life.. Was there with me.. Celebrating my birthday with me for the 2nd time~!! Justin and Yi Kang.. Both my so called brothers were there as well.. ^^ Other friends of mine that came were Christy, Christine, Kenson and "Tai Lou".. Hehe..


Greedy pig~!!


Leng zai ma?

Everyone ate till their tummy bloated~!! Kekeke.. And thanks to my dear dear for treating everyone.. ^^ I guess it was worth the money as everyone seemed satisfied.. One thing though.. I have yet to receive any presents this time.. Not that I'm materialistic.. But it would be nice to get something for my birthday.. Even if it were something tiny.. ^^


The whole gang.. Where's my bb?

Well to catch up a little with my absence for so many months.. Nothing much changed in my life.. Still happily living with my dearest Robb, Justin and Christy.. Justin is a wonderful person to have as a housemate~!! Where can you find someone who willingly sweep and mop the floor everyday~!! Thanks to him our house has been kept clean, presentable and livable~!! Lolz..

As for my college life.. Things seemed a little different when it comes to my classmates.. But then life's like that.. XD Now I'm in my 3rd semester.. Having to do Geography and Principles of Tourism.. Hopefully I did well in my previous semester as our results are yet to be out.. No thanks to my "efficient" college.. As for this semester.. It is a short sem as we only have 7 weeks of classes~!!

Supposed to go to Matta Fair last week to do our assignment.. But as our "efficient" lecturer left us with nothing but an assignment paper without explaining it to us.. We end up wandering around collecting brochures with no idea what might be usefull.. Darn.. Well at least the trip was worth it as there were lots of promotions to drool about and a wonderful dance performance some taiwan girls.. ^^ Even had a long chat with a beautiful malay girl at the Korea booth as well as a Korean professor.. She is teaching Hospitality Management at a college in Korea and was invited to Matta Fair for 3 days.. XD


What kinda experience? *Grinz*

Guess I will be updating my blog more often now.. Hopefully.. XD Won't be as interesting as Robb's though as I write for myself.. Not for others.. So those who wanna read.. Thanks~!! Those who find it boring.. Well.. Thanks for reading it in the 1st place as well.. Haha.. It's late.. Got to go.. Can't sleep yet though.. Maple Story~!! Chaoz..

~§hö©kWävê~

Liberi Fatali..

Liberi Fatali
(Nobuo Uematsu)



Fithos lusec wecos vinosec
Fithos lusec wecos vinosec
Fithos lusec wecos vinosec

Excitate vos e somno, liberi mei
Cunae sunt non
Excitate vos e somno, liberi fatali
Somnus est non

Surgite
Invenite
Veni hortum veritatis
Horti verna veritatis

Ardente veritate
Urite mala mundi
Ardente veritate
Incendite tenebras mundi

Valete, liberi
Diebus fatalibus

Fithos lusec wecos vinosec
Fithos lusec wecos vinosec
Fithos lusec wecos vinosec
Fithos lusec wecos vinosec

~§hö©kWävê~

Midnight Walk..

Few days back.. I went to KLCC to watch Step Up with Justin and Yi Kang.. We're supposed to watch the 7.30pm movie but by the time we got to the counter it was already sold out.. Didn't wanna waste our time coming all the way here for nothing.. So we bought the 11.30pm ticket..

The movie was worth it.. The main actor was so sexy and he really can dance! Makes me feel like dancing again.. Hehe.. The feeling when your body moves with the beat of the music can be very exciting and enjoying..

After the movie.. The time was already 1.30am.. No more LRT! Being the lazy person I am.. I suggested that we take a taxi back and to hell with the price.. But the other two "sohai"s somehow managed to drag me into walking back with them! From KLCC to Genting Klang!

Well.. The walk was not too bad.. Took us only 1 hour to reach home.. Fast huh? We ran awhile thought.. But not for long as I could not keep up.. Hehe.. Halfway home there was a motorbike that came from behind and suddenly came near and shouted at us.. What a shock! Lucky they weren't robbers or snatch thieves.. Wouldn't want to end up pennyless or in the hospital..

That's all about the journey.. Nothing much happened.. Nothing much to see as well.. And now.. I'm just waiting for time to pass by as I wait for Robb to come back from Ipoh.. Miss him so much even though it was just 2 days ago since we last met.. Hopefully his classmate drives careful enough to avoid any accident as it is raining most of the time.. Heck it is even raining now! Nice weather to sleep though.. Just like what Justin and Yi Kang is doing now.. Sleeping like a pig.. :P Anyway.. Gonna find something else to do.. Cyaz..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Death Note..

To anyone who is reading this blog..

This is going to be my last post.. As I'm about to jump down from my place which is 16 stories high.. Death shall be quick and painless.. That's what I think it would be.. Since I'm so afraid of heights I would be dead from the shock even before I touch the ground..

Maybe I should just use this instead..

Nah.. Just kidding.. I'm too young to die.. I'm too happy to die.. I'm even too cute to die!! LoLz.. Well ok.. That sentence was too much.. Hehe..

As for the title.. I just watched the movie Death Note last night in KLCC with my hubby.. :P It was a nice show.. Showing us how people can change when they obtain power.. Power to change a person's life.. Power to decide what is good and what is evil.. And kill those who he thinks is evil.. Power to play god..

This is when someone loses control of himself.. Trying to be god.. And kill anyone that comes in his way.. Are humans all that easily manipulated? Temptations.. Lust.. These things are the ones that always make a person lose himself.. Wonder what would happen if I had those powers.. I guess I would get rid of those who betrayed or hurt me before.. Torture them first before finishing them off.. Evil huh? LoL..

Cuties.. :P

Anyway.. It's a movie worth watching.. Better than The Covenant and Departed.. Would search for the anime if there is one.. LoL.. Back to killing.. Chaoz..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield