Friday, April 28, 2006

Short Hair!!!!





Boo!! Me and my ugly pics.. Kekeke.. Nice? Cut my hair recently when I was back in Penang.. Had the sudden urge to be impulsive so I ended up with less hair and kinda regret it.. Anyway.. Those pictures above were taken out of boredom.. Had nothing to do so I went to blow dry my hair after bathing to make it straight.. With hopes of making it nicer than it was when I just woke up.. Hehe.. And this is what I ended up with.. Comments??

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

My 21st Birthday..

Honestly.. It wasn't as nice as I thought it would be.. There were no pictures.. Not much things to do.. The only one who accompanied me all the way was Robb.. Edi gor came.. But he was so busy with his friends that I somehow felt that his trip here was spent more on other things than with me.. The only thing nice about yesterday was the movie with Robb in Midvalley.. Together with Eyrique and Joshie of course.. We watched "I'm Not Stupid Too".. It was a very touching movie as it revolves around a life of a teenager.. Not to mention those good looking actors too.. Hehe.. Well.. Not that my past few birthdays were very memorable anyway.. Just had my hopes up high since it was my 21st birthday afterall.. And to think some of my so called close friends didn't even send me a sms wishing me happy birthday.. What to do.. Already over.. No use fretting about it anymore.. There's no turning back.. Still.. That feeling still lurks around like an invisible force around me.. Sigh.. This blog is really a sad place to be.. Nothing nice comes out if you see a new post here.. Nothing..
Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Angel Of Music

Angel Of Music
(The Phantom Of The Opera)

PHANTOM'S VOICE: Brava, brava, bravissima . . .

MEG:
Christine, Christine...
(Phantom: Christine...)

Where in the world
have you been hiding?
Really, you were perfect!

I only wish
I knew your secret!
Who is your great tutor?

CHRISTINE:
Father once spoke of an angel
I used to dream he'd appear
Now as I sing, I can sense him
And I know he's here

Here in this room
he calls me softly
somewhere inside hiding

Somehow I know
he's always with me
he - the unseen genius

MEG:
Christine, you must have been dreaming, stories like this can't come true

Christine, you're talking in riddles, and it's not like you!

CHRISTINE:
Angel of Music!
Guide and guardian!
Grant to me your glory!

MEG(to herself):
Who is this angel? This...

BOTH:
Angel of Music!
Hide no longer!
Secret and strange angel

CHRISTINE:
He's with me, even now...

MEG:
Your hands are cold...

CHRISTINE:
All around me...

MEG:
Your face, Christine, it's white...

CHRISTINE:
It frightens me...

MEG:
Don't be frightened...

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Future?

Hm.. Just checked my results on the internet.. And guess what? I failed all my subjects! Except for english of course.. Well.. I should have expected this long time ago.. Why frown over it? People ask me to work harder.. Study harder.. Prepare earlier.. Etc.. But do they even know how I felt over it? If only they could be in my shoes.. They would know how confused I am right know.. I don't even know what I'm doing these days..

Besides spending time with my boyfriend.. I'm just wasting my time in KL doing nothing but eat, sleep and go to the cyber cafe to online.. Well.. Now that my results are out.. Should I study as much as I can to resit for those 4 papers in 1 month's time? Or should I just let go and start finding a job.. Or figuring out what the hell my life is all about? (Like that would happen).. I think I can say that I've wasted all my time.. Since after Form5 till now.. Been lost since then.. I don't work.. I don't study.. What the hell am I doing? Nothing.. And what do I do to change that situation of mine? Nothing.. Why is that? I don't know! Then why not do something about it? Try making me.. Even I can't move my own body.. Confused? So am I..

Maybe someone should just hypnotise me and make me a better person.. Might work.. Who knows? =P When will I wake from from this never ending dream of mine! Argh!! Few more days till my birthday.. A 21 year old man.. No longer a boy.. Yet still act like a child.. Ignoring responsibilities.. Ignoring life.. Just enjoying whatever that is given to him at that very moment.. Hm.. Nothing good comes out whenever I start to write.. And times like this makes me feel so out of place from the real world.. Living in fantasy land where everything is perfect and nice.. Can't even think of a person to have breakfast with me.. How lame..

I thought back about that thing that I might like to do in life.. I think I've mentioned it before.. Last year perhaps.. Travel around.. Visiting new places.. How about that for a job? So I went looking around Singapore Airlines website.. Hoping there might be something there for me.. Maybe join the cabin crew? Too bad.. The site's empty.. Even if they were looking for new crews there.. Am I ready to take this chance? I have no idea.. I keeping thinking and thinking and thinking.. But never did anything.. No wonder I feel like this all the time.. All thoughts and no action.. Brain filled with thoughts and nothing done to release the pressure out of it..

Someone told me I am a smart guy.. Am I? If I'm so smart why can't I do more for myself in this pityful life of mine.. =D Food for thought..

Ahh.. Enough.. Don't wanna write anymore for now.. One thing for sure.. I have a very loving boyfriend who supports me in whatever I do.. Hopefully I can be a better person for him.. ^^ Adioz..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Year 2006 For Pisceans

One of the things that matters most to you is keeping your promises. That will go double in early 2006, as a friend will undoubtedly rely on you for something quite important. You've reassured them for months now that they have nothing to worry about, but as soon as the year begins, you'll have a chance to prove that your word truly is your bond.

At the same time -- and straight through mid-March -- you'll also find that several high-ranking, influential coworkers and authority figures will be looking to you to follow through on your word. They may even need a bit more of a commitment from you. Not to worry though. The heavens will be more than happy to help you keep on task, and you'll be rewarded for your honesty, integrity and hard work in a very big way. Sit tight, do everything exactly as you know you should and prepare to experience a wonderful feeling: well-earned, justified pride in yourself.

Obviously, after all that hard work and discipline, you'll be more than ready to have some serious fun -- and the universe has some of that in mind for you too. You'll have all kinds of chances to do some long-distance traveling this year, and if there's any way at all that you can make a reality of one of those trips, don't pass it up. You've probably been itching either to go home for a visit or to return to a place you've always loved. Do it now, and take your favorite travel buddy along. (Just be sure to carry everything you need right on your person, in case of luggage delays or other annoyances.)

If you feel like a relationship is changing -- and not for the worse, so don't worry -- you could well be 100 percent right. Things between you and a certain someone will deepen considerably by the end of the year, if not before. If you don't already have someone in mind, a family member may introduce you to a potential sweetie -- someone they've been telling you is 'just perfect' for you -- around the end of July. You may have to put up with an I-told-you-so after a few weeks, but if things are going along that well, grin and bear it. It will be well worth it when you take a look around you by New Year's and realize that you've got everything you could possibly wish for!

Cupid will reward you for this year of personal discovery and good behavior -- you've been paying all your dues and working hard! In all, your pride in your work will give you a sense of calm assurance that will be extremely appealing to that special someone. The universe will be tossing you opportunities for fun all year long, leaving you laughing and full of quirky stories that will keep anyone intrigued.

If you are single in the midst of swimsuit season, be open to blind dates set up by those you trust, because it's quite likely that one of those awkward moments could turn into a deep and joyful relationship. Sure, you'd have to put yourself on the line -- but with the rest of your life going so swimmingly, it's a small thing to risk! Besides, your success at work and your loving friends will keep you busy and make you even more desirable.

If you are already in a relationship, your radar will start to pick up some interesting changes between the two of you. Don't be afraid, even if you like how things stand. By the end of the year, if you embrace those changes, you could find that a good relationship has ripened into something truly terrific.

Whether you're single or committed or somewhere in between, this year will bring self-confidence and wildly attractive relationship opportunities. You may even get to travel and send lovelorn letters to your sweetie from exotic locales. That is, if you aren't traveling together, which is also a possibility. In that case, you may find that hunting for sunblock and trying out strange new foods gives you both a serious case of lovesickness. And far from home, you'll feel uninhibited about expressing your devotion or enjoying your partner's high praise. So let yourself be rewarded as you deserve.

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Monday, February 27, 2006

Chronicles Of Zachnia.. Narnia? Lolz..

Ok.. Lets see.. Been gone for a very long time now.. Lots of missing pieces in this so called blog of mine.. But where do I start? Chinese New Year? Well.. Nothing much happened during that time.. Like everyone else.. Was busy collecting ang pow.. Gambling.. Playing.. Visiting.. Hehehe.. I hardly gamble though.. Only time that I did I think was during the 3rd day of Chinese New Year.. My secondary school group of friends have this gathering at a certain friend's house every year during the 3rd day of Chinese New Year.. We would gamble there and catch up on all the things we missed as most of us are studying in different places now.. Well like every year.. I never win.. Hehe.. Maybe that is why I don't like to gamble that much.. I prefer to drink.. Had few glasses of red wine at my uncle's house when I was back in Penang.. Broke one of his glasses too.. Didn't really know what happen though.. LoL.. Did lots of Dota-ing with my friends too.. Won some lost some.. It was fun.. Still.. All the time back in Penang.. My heart did not stop missing someone important.. Someone back in Ipoh.. ^^

Went back to KL few days before Valentine's Day.. Did nothing much back in KL.. On the day before Valentine's Day.. I went up to Genting Highlands with Robb, Ben and Casper.. ^^ My 1st Valentine's outing with someone I love.. Although we did nothing much and didn't get to play at the outdoor theme park.. But the time spent together with Robb was nice.. Especially during the night.. Hehehe.. Details not gonna be spilled here.. =P Wanna know ask me yourself.. *Evil grinz* Stayed for one night only.. Went back to KL the next afternoon after having lunch at Pizza Hut.. Everything is so expensive up there!! Kinda reluctant to spend a single cent there.. But then.. Not everyday is Valentine's Day.. So.. What the heck.. ^^

Back in KL.. Again.. Wasted my time doing nothing.. But spent quite alot of time with Robb.. Even finished watching the Hong Kong series "War And Beauty".. That series was nice.. Watching how the women fight among themselves for power and vengeance.. Evil.. Never mess with women or make them angry.. You'll never know what hit you next.. Hehe.. Well.. Things are going well among me and Robb.. Its been more than 4 months since the day we got together.. Really glad that this relationship of ours is working now.. I can't say the same thing for my own life though.. Don't know what am I doing wasting my time in KL.. Waiting results? Hehe.. Expected to fail alot.. Robb asked me to go work part-time with him.. Well.. This might seem like nothing for most people.. But it should be a very huge step for me.. I'm still a child inside.. Afraid to grow up.. Afraid to meet the real world.. But physically.. I'm reaching 21 soon.. Sigh.. Lets just see what happens next..

Birthday is near.. Few more weeks and I will be considered an independant young adult.. Lots of people will be here in KL to celebrate with me.. Even Ben wants to celebrate his birthday together with mine although his was much earlier.. My godbro Edi from Johor will be here to meet me too! Can't wait to see him.. Too bad Matt gor won't be able to make it as he is very busy with work now.. Doctor wor!! Hehe.. Nvmle.. Wait till he is free..

Got to know quite a lot of new people in ChinesePlu.. Also spent quite alot of time in Maple Story with some of my friends.. Made a level 33 Cleric.. Healer again.. ^^ And now.. I'm wide awake writing this useless piece of my so-called life without any sleep since yesterday.. Wonder what will become of me.. Robb.. Where are you? Missed you so much although its just been 3 days since you've went back to Ipoh.. Sigh.. Addicted to you..

Nothing much to say now.. Oh yea.. Had some stupid pictures taken while waiting for my Naruto to download finish.. =P Kinda liked my hair today.. Hehe.. Enjoy.. Chaoz..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Sunday, January 08, 2006

A Song For My Darling..

If I Ain't Got You
(Alicia Keys)

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

Some people search for a fountain
The promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them

Hand me a world on a silver platter
And what good would it be?
With no one to share, with no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

If I ain't got you with me baby
Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Memories of 2005.. Beginning of 2006

A year has passed.. Lots have happened.. People come.. People go.. But I'm still the same old me.. Its been a while since I've updated this blog.. There were a few memorable events that happened during the previous year.. Which was just few days ago.. Hehe.. So now I will try to fill in those happenings from 2005 which I have missed out from this blog.. Hopefully my memory serves me well and let me write all of it down here.. In this place where I spill all my happiness and sorrow.

Before 2005's Christmas, I was back in Penang for few days.. With Yaoi of course.. There was this gathering with my old schoolmates.. SUPLEX.. I can't exactly remember what it stands for.. Bad memory of mine.. =) He arrived in Penang earlier than me as I missed my bus in KL.. Got stuck in the traffic jam and for the 1st time.. The bus left early.. Usually it reaches late or leaves late.. Wonder why this time so unlucky.. My friend who drove me there bought new tickets as he felt it was his fault we arrived late.. Called Yaoi and told him about it.. Luckily Adrian is free and met up with Yaoi when he arrived in Penang.. They went to play few games of DOTA before I arrived..

The next morning we went to KOMTAR to meet up with my friends.. From there we sat a public bus to Teluk Bahang where some of us hike there while the rest sit a boat with all our stuffs for BBQ in Pantai Kerachut.. Yaoi felt out of place I suppose.. As everyone was speaking in Hokkien.. But he said its ok as long as I'm with him.. So sweet.. =P So we sat on the boat and enjoyed the scenery.. I always feel at ease whenever I'm near the sea.. No idea why.. So we reached Pantai Kerachut.. Arranged our stuffs and cleaned the place.. It was beautiful.. The beach.. The sky.. The sea.. Well.. After that just lazed around till dinner.. It was fun.. BBQ-ing on the beach.. Under the stars.. With the sea breeze.. Hehe.. Near midnite we went to lie down at the jetty.. The sky was so beautiful.. Can see stars all over.. We just stayed there and stare at the sky.. Went back the next day..

These are few of the pictures taken from Genting Highlands.. The mists were scary though when we came back down to KL.. Can't see the road in front of us.. Hehe.. Can't remember when I went there.. But was sometime around December.. =P Enjoy..


As for Christmas.. I went to Ipoh to look for Yaoi to celebrate with him.. Not to forget BenBen and my god bro Matthew.. Wanted to reach a day before Christmas but the bus tickets were all sold out.. So I had to go on the next day.. Met up with a friend of his near afternoon and watched a movie in Jusco.. A Chinese Tall Story.. Quite lame.. After the movie we went back and had a quick bath before heading out again for dinner.. Had steak for dinner.. Wasn't that nice.. Still prefer the steak at The Ship and Victoria Station.. Hehe.. Went for few rounds of DOTA after that.. Lost at the last round.. Sigh.. Well.. Went to Friends Cafe and met up with Ben there.. Few other people were there too but I can't remember their names.. Hehe.. Forgetfull me.. =P Nothing much happened on that day.. Just sat there and chat with them.. There were few fireworks as well.. Matt kor came around midnight.. He looked so exhausted.. Must be tiring to work in the hospital.. Went to supper and then back home to sleep..

New Year's eve!! Yaoi's turn to come to KL.. Met a lot of ChinesePlu gang in Green Lotus that night.. Didn't expect to see so many people there.. Even Fansu was there.. Hehe.. Let me see.. Nic83, Smiling-Baby, Pepsi, Mention, Maxboi, Feiyu, Ah Kin and few others were there too.. The food there was ok.. But was abit pricey.. After dinner we went out of the restaurant.. Oh yea.. We were in Bukit Bintang that time.. It was so packed with people.. We can hardly move around in that crowd.. Lots of spraying and laughing all over the place.. Found a spot between Maybank and McDonalds and we stood there while waiting for the fireworks to start.. Saw more spraying and honking around that area.. Hehe.. The fireworks started as soon as the clock reached 12.00.. Happy New Year!!! The fireworks were beautiful.. Too bad I don't have any camera or I would have taken some pictures of them.. Well.. After everything finished we headed back to the carpark.. The traffic was bad.. Wanted to go to LQ that night but had to cancel our plan since we arrived late.. No point wasting our money.. Had late supper and went back to Nic's house to overnight.. Took some pictures with his doggy on the next morning too.. =P


The night after that we went to LQ.. Was quite empty though.. The top section of LQ was closed.. No idea why.. So we just hanged out at the bottom section.. There were few big sized girls dancing on the dance floor.. We joined them after getting bored from just sitting there and chatting.. Hehe.. Done some stupid things and took photos of it but I won't be posting it here.. Too shy.. Bleh..


Quite a year for me.. As for the beginning of 2006.. It wasn't that nice.. Had conjunctivitis last week.. Irritated my eye for quite long.. Itchy and watery.. Sigh.. Got better after taking some medication from the doctor.. Still.. 2 days ago I had food poisoning.. Argh.. Diarrhea all day long.. Bloated stomach.. Lost of appetite.. T_T So tiring.. My whole body was aching.. And there was no one to take me to the clinic.. Had to walk down all by myself with the aching tummy and body.. The assistant at the counter recognised me as I just went to the same clinic 2 days before that.. What a year.. I wonder what is going to happen next..

Today is the 3rd month anniversary of me and Yaoi.. 1st good news of the year.. Hehe.. He will be coming to KL's Tar college to study.. Although he can't stay with me but still he's closer to me now.. Rather than having him in Ipoh and me in KL.. Have to appreciate this chance.. Well.. Chinese New Year is near too.. And so are my exams.. Haven't done any shopping for my clothes yet.. Same goes for my studies.. Hm.. Lazy me.. ><"

I guess this sums up to what I have not written for the past few weeks.. Sorry for not updating my blog that often.. Sometimes I just don't know how to write.. =D Those were just summaries of what had happened so far.. Hopefully this year will be a better year after having such a bad start.. Cya.. Chaoz..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Monday, December 05, 2005

New Month.. New Style~!!

Hie all~!! Went rebonding few days ago.. Kekeke.. Wish I could put a picture of me here but I guess you guys will just have to wait.. Not letting my ugly flat hair spoil my face.. Bleh~!! Need to wait till its not that flat then I will look better.. Kekeke.. This time the rebonding costs me only RM120 including hair treatment!! So much cheaper than the previous one.. Which costs like rm200 without treatment.. Won't be going back there again.. =P

Oh yea.. Went to the PC Fair in KLCC Convention Centre today.. Bought myself a new subwoofer from SonicGear.. Though I don't know much bout speakers.. But then I like the design and the quality is quite nice! Maybe I'm just easily satisfied.. Hehe.. Well.. This thing cost me RM109.. Was thinking of paying by card but they only accept cash.. Sigh.. Lucky I brought enough.. Or I would have went back disappointed.. Forgot to take a full picture of it but these are the pictures of my lovely speakers!! (And my lovely wallpaper from Final Fantasy 7 Advent Children.. Kekekek)


Well.. Thats all for now.. Have no idea what to write at the moment.. Be back with more updates soon!! (Hopefully.. Kekeke) Nitez..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Monday, November 28, 2005

Forehead With The Letter "L"..

After spending half my day playing the computer, less than an hour doing part of my assignment, and the whole night out in Bukit Bintang watching Harry Potter.. I came back with a blue mood.. I have no idea what triggered this sudden change of feeling but its been a long time since I've felt this way..

I feel so lost.. Again.. No idea what I am doing with my life.. No aims.. No goals.. Just wasting my time chatting online and playing online games.. I have assignments to settle.. Tutorials to finish.. But never really did them.. Tried to do my assignment but my so called effort usually ends in less than an hour.. I just can't make myself to finish all those work that I'm supposed to do.. Laziness got over me.. Maybe I just have no interest in it.. I dunno.. Don't even know what I want.. Such a loser..

Looking at people pursuing their goals.. Walking down the path that they wanted.. Fighting for their future.. Makes me feel helpless.. I'm just wasting my parents money by paying for my college bills in a course that I don't seem to be doing much.. I should just draw a letter "L" on my forehead.. Or maybe it's already there.. What's wrong with me? I wasn't like this before.. Being this lazy isn't who I was! Matt asked me to explore myself.. Get to know myself.. What I like.. What I'm good at.. But there's nothing but an empty space.. A dark entity.. Vacuum.. Sigh..

I can never decide.. This attitude of mine will ruin me soon.. Maybe it already has.. I don't know what I really want.. I don't know what I really like.. Hm.. What will happen to me in the future..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Plan Exposed..

Hi.. I'm back~!! Been awhile since I was able to sit in my own room and write my blog.. Didn't get to online till now.. What a relief.. =P Now that I'm back online.. Hopefully I can continue writting constantly instead of leaving huge spaces between my posts..

Remember about me mentioning something about some sort of a plan before Hari Raya? Well.. I went all the way to Ipoh to give Yaoi a suprise and also visit Ben for Hari Raya.. But someone spilled out to him that I was going! Not much of a suprise then.. But still he was very happy to know about it.. Bleh..

Went back to KL after that.. Yaoi came along.. Spent some time together.. Then he went back few days later.. Life goes on as usuall.. Getting along fine with my new roomates and housemates too.. Although most of them don't speak much.. Maybe if I stayed here longer then that would be different.. =D

Oh! Almost forgot.. I went to LQ at last! Was kinda fun.. Cold too.. Kekeke.. My 1st time there and they had a shower party! Water all over the place.. Dancing along with the music and water spraying all over us.. It was cool.. Matt kor took us back after that.. Felt sorry for his car.. Hopefully our wet butts didn't spoil his leather seats.. Hehehe..

Hm.. Not much of an update I would say.. Low on details now as there were too much to write.. Can't remember some of them anyway.. Never mind.. Just a short blog to fill you guys in on some of the happenings for the past few weeks.. ^^ Anyways.. Will be writting more soon.. Hopefully.. Till then.. Chaoz..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Monday, October 31, 2005

Moving Away!!

Ooooh.. How I wish time would go faster.. Soon I'd be rid of "The one who must not be named" and have my peace and quiet sleep that I longed for.. Don't have to see "Smeagol" running to every single mirror in the house and looking at his reflection for 30 to 90 minutes!! He'd fix his curly hair.. Apply wax.. Blow straight.. Etc.. Nothing seems to work though as from what I can see.. His hair looks the way it was before he applied all those chemicals.. Ugly!! Instead.. I'd have 2 good looking roomates living with me in my new room!! Bleh..

Was about to sleep just now.. Turned off the lights.. Went to my bed.. Turned my laptop around and sent some goodbye messages.. Then.. In he came.. And as usuall.. That inconsiderate bastard turned on the lights.. Went to his computer.. And turned on his MP3's.. Speakers! Not headphones! Damn him.. Now I can't sleep.. My friend asked me to talk to him.. But I'm sick of it.. This is not the 1st time he does this.. Told him long long time ago but he still repeats himself.. So what if he knew Daniel and Farah from Malaysian Idol? Very great huh? Eat my foot! No matter how popular he is among his other friends he's still some lowlife bastard to me.. Never does his share of cleaning up the house.. Cares for his ugly hair only.. I wish my housemates who are staying with him after this good luck cuz' they're gonna need lots of it.. Ish.. Spoilt my mood..

I've already moved some of my stuffs to my new room.. Alex is already living in there.. He has so many belongings!! Wonder how much assets Pau Zai will bring in too.. Hehe.. My cupboard's already there.. Still have to carry my table and my mattress there soon.. Won't be able to online though after I move there as the ports in the router are already all used up.. I have to buy myself a switch in order to online.. Sigh.. Spend spend spend.. All their fault.. Ish.. Got one nice unit don't wanna move there.. Fine now everyone's separated.. Happy? Selfish brats.. Don't even expect me to move back in with you guys after the landlord has left that so called nice house of yours.. Find yourself another victim..

Enough with them.. Back to me.. Yaoi is coming to KL this Saturday!! Can't wait to meet him.. He told me he's most probably gonna study in
Tar College too and coming in during the January intake.. If that is so.. He will try to pursuade his father to let him rent a room outside instead of staying in the lousy hostel that Tar College has.. Hehe.. If everything goes well then we'll be living in the same house!! Happy news at last.. =P Oh and for this week I have some plans up my sleeve but won't be writting it down yet.. Will only mention it after it is implemented.. Kekeke..

Ah.. It's so late already!! Better try to get some rest.. My body is aching from all the heavy lifting for the past few days.. I'll just go off the lights.. Not going to bother whether "Smeagol" needs the light or not.. He should get the idea after that.. Nitez guys..

Zach a.k.a.
Garfield

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Thinking.. Thinking..

Hm.. How to continue from the previous post.. For the happenings in Penang I guess I won't be writting much.. You guys can just view it from one of my friend's posts.. Refer to Fansu in my list of blogs beside this website.. Something special happened though.. Something Fansu didn't mention in his blog.. And I think it's time to spill it all out here.. During one of those days in Penang.. Yaoi came to visit me.. And a relationship started.. A bond that brought us together.. Details about how and when it happened won't be mentioned.. I didn't write all this down before as I was still unable to let go of someone.. But I realised that I should appreciate someone who is right in front of me and cares for me a lot rather than hanging on to someone who is half the globe away and not having much free time even to chat.. I know I should wait but it's just too hard.. He has no time for me.. But Yaoi has always been there for me.. It's not hard to decide who is really right for me.. ^^

After returning from Penang.. There were more things to settle.. The most important one is to find a place to stay as my current landlord already sold the house.. And gave us a very short period to find another place and move out.. The dateline was on 9th of November.. No extention of date given.. So all 7 of us hurried and tried our best to look for another new unit so that all of us can move in together again.. But luck was not on our side.. It's hard to find a nice place like the unit I'm staying in now.. Especially during this season.. So as day passes by.. 2 of my housemates found themselves a small room to rent which leaves 5 of us to continue searching.. Now we're lack of 2 people and so I asked 2 of my friends to come join me there and they agreed.. After days of looking at rooms and houses.. We found one unit which quite satisfy our needs.. Discussed with the landlord as if we were really into it and even got him to agree to some of our terms..

I thought everything was fine.. Until suddenly they (my remaining housemates) decided they do not want to rent that unit and preferred to take the 2 medium rooms which we saw before.. And that leaves me homeless.. Only me.. I had to find a masteroom too as I've already promised my friends that I'd include them along before this.. But now.. I have to search for this room of mine when my so called friendly housemates have their secured rooms with a nice landlord.. How sweet of them to leave me like this.. They promised to find me a place.. But only one girl tried.. The others just sat around shaking their legs and waiting for the time to move in their lovely little rooms while I have to worry about not having a room for me and my 2 other friend.. Life is so cruel.. I suddenly feel so much hatred towards them.. After all.. It's not like I'm the blacksheep of the current house.. I did my share of work.. Did extra when others aren't doing their jobs.. But no one appreciates it.. I can clean up their mess most of the times but they can't even clean up the mess I made in the kitchen sink I made once.. How "nice" of them.. I finally see how cruel humans can be when times are desperate.. They only think for themselves.. I should just do that too and don't care about my other 2 friends but I cannot overcome myself if I ever break that promise..

Fine.. Enough with them.. I went to look for my room after that.. Found some but it was either too pricy or not suitable.. Got kinda worried as I need to move out soon.. If I cannot find a place fast I won't have anywhere to stay.. After looking around.. I found myself a room.. Well 2 rooms actually.. In the same unit.. I can take either one and the price is reasonable.. Felt relieved as I quite liked the place.. I quickly asked my friends for their opinion and ended up agreeing to rent the place as there were others who wanted the rooms too.. I thought everything was settled and I can rest peacefully.. But I was wrong.. I still can't sleep.. Wide awake.. Thinking.. So many questions flooding my mind.. So much worries.. But I have very few choices left.. This was the safest way.. There's nothing much I can do about it now..

During all those happenings.. One special person supported me in everyway he can.. You guys should know who.. =P Well.. He talked to me and calmed me down.. Promising that everything will turn out fine.. Giving me emotional support.. Loving me.. Hehe.. Although he's not here but everything he did for me was something that I cannot forget.. His support got me through this hardship without much sorrow.. I'm lucky to have him.. Very very lucky.. Not forgetting my other friends who talked to me and calmed me down too.. Especially Ben Ben.. My new found friend.. Hehe.. Thanks guys!! Life has its ups and downs.. Just see how you face it and make the best out of it.. Hopefully everything will really be fine for me after this sad period.. Wish me luck guys!


P.S. Sorry Yaoi.. I say wan to sleep earlier but didn't.. I really can't sleep.. Too much on my mind.. =X Must write part of it down before I forgot how to write again.. =X

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Hometown..

Seems like an eternity since my last update.. Lots have happened.. But won't be writing it in detail here.. All sorts of emotions.. Happiness.. Sadness.. Confusions.. Etc.. Will just leave that for another day when I can sort everything out and write it in here..

Hm.. Went back to Penang after my exams.. Had a wonderful time back home.. Enjoying my mother's home cook food and also not forgetting those wonderful local Penang dishes all around the island.. Had almost all of the food that I liked.. Only missed one.. The curry mee near my granny's house.. Went there but the stall wasn't open.. Sigh.. Oh well.. Never mind.. Next trip back must eat that for sure.. ^^

Few of my friends came to Penang for their holidays too.. Took them all around the island.. Well.. Not literally though.. Hehe.. Took them to those famous places such as Kek Lok Si, Penang Hill and Gurney Drive.. Went to enjoy all the nice Penang food.. ^^ One of them even walked around the town area by himself.. Even I myself never did that.. Hehe.. Oh yea.. Watched Sky High with my housemates and Yaoi (not his real name).. Was quite nice.. Not forgetting the outing with some new friends in Batu Ferringhi.. Bought some souveniors and went to the beach too..

Hm.. Continue later.. Lazy wanna write more.. Below are some pictures taken in Penang.. Hehe.. Enjoy.. Tata..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield







Thursday, September 22, 2005

Forever..

Forever
(Damage)


I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still forever

You are the sun
You are my light
And you're the last thing on my mind
Before I go to sleep at night

You're always around
When I'm in need
When trouble's on my mind
You put my soul at ease

There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
So many reasons that I
Want to spend forever with you

(Chorus)
I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I'll be loving you forever

We had our fun
And we've made mistakes
But who'd have guessed along that road
We'd learn to give and take

It's so much more
Then I could have dreamed
You make loving you
So easy for me

There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
That is the reason that I
Want to share forever with you

(Chorus)

Cuz this is a world
Where lovers often goes astray
But if we love each other
We won't go, won't go that way

So put your doubts aside
Do what it takes to make it right
Cuz I'll love you forever
No one can tear us apart

(Chorus)

I just want you to know that
I can't eat, I can't sleep
I can't breathe, whenever I'm without you
When we walk, I stand tall
When I talk, I only talk about you girl

(Repeat chorus to fade)

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Rain Drops From Heaven..

My exams are finally over!! But I've still got to stay back for extra MYOB classes.. Before this I was eager to go back to Penang.. But somehow I'm glad I stayed back.. Met a lot of people yesterday.. Nice people..

It rained this afternoon before I went to class.. Luckily my one of my classmate drove to college so she gave me a ride.. It was so cold in the computer lab.. Was hungry too as I didn't eat anything since morning.. My class starts at 2.00p.m. and ends at 6.00p.m. so I had to wait till everything is over before I get to eat my 1st meal.. Which was my dinner.. It stopped raining by then.. And the weather was so cooling and refreshing.. I can feel the chilling wind blowing against my face.. A nice day to go out..

Sigh.. Forgive me.. I can't seem to be writting properly these few days.. It's like I've lost touch in most of the things I do.. I can't seem to put my feelings into words anymore.. Anyone care to help me? =D

Ok back to the topic.. Was in IRC when Yeoth online.. We chatted awhile and somehow made a last minute date and went out to yum cha somewhere in Damansara.. Got prepared and then went down to catch a bus to the LRT station.. Took me around 40 minutes to reach KL central.. Including the bus ride though.. Hehe.. But the journey was quite nice.. Saw a cute little baby sitting on his mother's lap.. Sms-ed Yeoth and told him about it and it seems like he likes small kids too! What a coincidence..

He was already there when I reached KL Central.. I got into his car and we went to Starbucks for a drink.. He bought one chocolate cake too and we shared it.. Was quite nice.. We sat there and chat until the shop closed.. Hehe.. Then went for a walk and continued chatting.. Talked bout lots of stuff.. Old memories mostly.. Memories that brought both happiness and sadness.. We stopped at a basketball court nearby and just lie there.. Watching the sky and enjoying the cool midnight breeze.. We can see the moon clearly and it was quite a beautiful sight.. Too bad none of us had a camera phone.. Poor people.. Lol.. No stars though.. How nice if time would just stop then.. ^^

He took me home later on as the LRT's were closed already.. Got back.. Sat on my chair.. And came online.. Took me quite long to write this though.. As I've mentioned above.. I seem to lost touch.. ^^ But its ok.. I still manage to finish this small little chapter of my life.. Hopefully I can find my inspiration soon.. So I guess I'll just leave now and write again next time.. Chaoz.. Oh yea.. Thanks for a wonderful night Yeoth.. Enjoyed chatting with you.. ^^ Goodnight everyone..

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Friday, September 09, 2005

Exam Season.. Sigh..

Today is the first day of the exam week.. Some of my housemates are having their papers today.. I can sense their stress throughout the entire week.. As for me.. I am as relaxed as usuall.. Pretending as though nothing has happened.. As though I have no exams.. No worries.. No nothing.. But the truth is.. I have two papers to sit for~!! And those two papers are not easy.. But till now I haven't revised a single thing at all~!! I seemed to have lost interest in my course.. To make it even worse.. I don't know what course that interests me.. Maybe a little curious to find out more about Hotel Management.. But then.. What if I end up not liking it again? I will be wasting my parents money and wasting their hopes on me.. What should I do?

I feel so lost these days.. And what happened recently(got dumped..) made me even more lost.. I still miss him a lot.. Looking through his messages in my handphone.. Playing with the chain he gave me.. The dried rose.. The book.. Thinking about all those times we spent together.. But all those are nothing but memories.. A chapter in my life that started well and ended in sadness.. Felt like a wandering ghost floating around with no reason.. No purpose.. I wonder how is he now.. Sigh..

There seemed to be a lot of break ups in this month of September.. My friend told me two of his friends broke up.. Even my housemate broke up with her boyfriend.. Their relationship had already survived for four years but still ended up like this.. Is love such a hard thing to maintain? Sigh.. After all these happenings.. I wonder if I will ever dare love again.. It scares me to think that anything possible could happen in a relationship.. I don't wanna go through this pain any more.. My friend told me not to think so much about the pain and try to think of those happy times I had when he was with me.. But how could I? Even if I could.. My mind would eventually drift to the night when he told me that we were not meant to be.. Hm..

Seems that I've drifted off my main topic here.. But who cares.. This is my blog.. My world.. My only place to hide.. My dreamland.. (>.<)"

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

My Sign..

Pisces, one of the less flamboyant signs and its natives are more ordinary than those of, for example, Leo, Scorpio and Aquarius. Pisceans possess a gentle, patient, malleable nature. They have many generous qualities and are friendly, good natured, kind and compassionate, sensitive to the feelings of those around them, and respond with the utmost sympathy and tact to any suffering they encounter. They are deservedly popular with all kinds of people, partly because their easygoing, affectionate, submissive natures offer no threat or challenge to stronger and more exuberant characters. They accept the people around them and the circumstances in which they find themselves rather than trying to adapt them to suit themselves, and they patiently wait for problems to sort themselves out rather than take the initiative in solving them. They are more readily concerned with the problems of others than with their own.

Their natures tend to be too otherworldly for the practical purposes of living in this world as it is. They exist emotionally rather than rationally, instinctively more than intellectually. Their willpower, ambition they long to be recognized as greatly creative and reasoning are all limited and, however anxious they are to fulfill themselves, their concentration is weak; they lack decisiveness and they are easily diverted from their purposes. They are apt to live a shiftless sort of life, searching for some career in which they can really find themselves, but being easily discouraged they become despondent, feeling unappreciated and moving on to something or someone else. They also dislike disciple and confinement within routine the nine-to-five life is not for them - and confinement by codes of behavior. Any rebellion they make against convention is personal, however, as they do not have the energy to battle against the Establishment.

Pisceans tend to withdraw into a dream world where their qualities can bring mental satisfaction and sometimes, but by no means inevitably, fame and financial reward for they are gifted artistically. They are also versatile and intuitive, have quick understanding, observe and listen well, and are receptive to new ideas and atmospheres. All these factors can combine to produce remarkable creativity in literature, music and art. They may count among their gifts mediumistic qualities which can give them a feeling that their best work comes from outside themselves, "Whispered beyond the misted curtains, screening this world from that." Even when they cannot express themselves creatively they have a greater than average instinct for, and love of, beauty in art and nature, a catlike appreciation of luxury and pleasure, and a yearning for new sensations and travel to remote, exotic places.

They are never egotistical in their personal relationships and give more than they ask from their friends. They are sexually delicate, in the extreme almost asexual, and most Pisceans would want a relationship in which the partner's mind and spirit rather than the body resonated with their own. Unfortunately they can be easily misled by a lover who courts them delicately and in marriage makes them unhappy by a coarser sexuality than they expected. They are nevertheless intensely loyal and home-loving and will remain faithful - though their dreamy and impractical natures do not fit them to keep a tidy and well-run house.

In their employment they are better working either by themselves or in subordinate positions. Their talents are individual in a commercial business or similar undertaking they would be afraid to manage more than a small department, worrying always that they would fail in a crisis. They can make fair secretaries and bookkeepers. Their sympathy equips them for work in charities catering for the needy, as nurses looking after the sick and as veterinary surgeons caring for animals. As librarians or astronomers they can satisfy their mental wanderlust, and their fondness for "faraway places with strange-sounding names" may turn them into sailors or travellers. Many architects and lawyers are Pisceans, and when the creative abilities are combined with gifts of imitation and the ability to enter into the feelings of others, Pisceans find their fulfillment on the stage. Their psychic and spiritual qualities can lead them into careers in the church or as mediums and mystics. They may find an outlet for their creativity as caterers, and are said to make good detectives because they can imagine themselves in the place of criminals and understand how their minds would work. In technical occupations they are well employed in dealing with anaesthetics, fluids, gases and plastics. Because of their lively versatility and inability to concentrate overmuch on any one project, Pisceans often simultaneously follow more than one occupation.

Their faults are exasperating rather than vicious. They can be oversubtle, oversensitive and overemotional. In business they can be unreliable, idle, careless, impractical and ineffective. Their friends may find their diffidence and sense of their own unimportance irritating and may eventually want to shake off acquaintances who not only lack initiative but are peevish and extravagantly temperamental in their dependence on them. Other faults of which the negative Piscean is accused are fickleness, gossiping, indiscretion, effeminacy and gullibility. They may not be able to avoid being sickly, but their fretting hypochondria can wear out a saint's patience. They can be intellectually dishonest and also actually fraudulent, deceitful and hypocritical. They are often indecisive in important matters yet will uphold absurdities with the obstinacy of the weak. When they feel themselves rejected, lonely or failures, or simply through feeble self-indulgence, they will find refuge in drugs or the bottle.

    LIKES
  • Solitude to dream in
  • Mystery in all its guises
  • Anything discarded to stay discarded
  • The ridiculas
  • like to get 'lost'
    DISLIKES
  • the obvious
  • being critized
  • feeling all at sea about something
  • know-it-alls
  • pedantry
Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Monday, September 05, 2005

Emotions..

It's over.. No more happy ending for me.. All I have left is this feeling of loneliness.. But this is nothing new.. This sadness.. This pain.. I should be used to it by now.. But it still hurt a lot.. He gave me some happy moments.. But I rather stay in the dark than having a short period of hapiness.. A short period of hope.. He was everything to me.. My life.. My love.. Now.. Everything that I felt.. Everything that I once knew.. Broken.. Shattered.. Crushed.. I don't wanna go through this anymore.. Please.. Don't give me hope if you're going to push me down this dark gloomy cliff again.. All I can do now is cry.. And cry.. And cry.. Life was never fair to me.. Gave me one tiny hope just to see me fall again.. Never fair.. T_T

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Emotions
(Destiny Child)

It's over and done
But the heartache lives on inside
And who's the one you're clinging to
Instead of me tonight?

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You'll never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
Lost in the song
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to hold me tight?
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

I'm there at your side,
I'm part of all the things you are
But you've got a part of someone else
You've got to find your shining star

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You'll never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
Lost in the song
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to hold me tight?
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You'll never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
Lost in the song
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to hold me tight?
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

Saturday, September 03, 2005

Happy Ending.. Not..

Today.. My friend told me something that changed my mood entirely.. Won't be leaking anything here now as what he told me was yet to be confirmed.. It might be true as I felt it myself for quite some time already.. Hope I can settle it as soon as possible.. Hope it is just a misunderstanding.. Whatever it is.. Things are not going to be the same from now onwards.. Sad sad day.. (>.<)

Zach a.k.a. Garfield

Happy Ending
(Avril Lavigne)

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

(Chorus)
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

Oh Oh, Oh Oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh Oh,Oh Oh, Oh huh

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do, (All the shit that you do)

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

(Chorus)

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

(Chorus) x 2

Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh Oh,Oh Oh, Ohhhhh Oh Oh,Oh Oh, Ohhhhh